I managed to stumble across a person who happened to be an auDHDer like myself in a game just now out of blind luck. They had very similar academic interest to mine so we had a fabulous yap session/taking turns infodumping session.

It was pertinent to the discussion at the time so I mentioned the anarchist Ivan Illich's work to them and they were immediately very interested in his stuff. It was definitely in keeping with my "Chuck 'em leftwards and hope they land somewhere good" strategy.

Apparently I still got it in me.

Also Linux stay winning

ReadFanon is trans? How much more based can you get?
- Yeah, I'm an enbie who hasn't figured it all out yet but maybe agender spec? Still learning, always learning.
- ⓘ You have unlocked the achievement: New ReadFanon gender lore!

Ughhhhhhhhh the waitress at the cafe im at is a super fucking cute trans girl. I look like dogshit right now and i dont know how to talk to people irl aghhhhh

fucking white queer libs i am so fucking done i was on this nice ace kink server, with my partner partner notices a sus profile, and i autotranslate the hebrew on it, and it's a clear zionist. i even asked my friend who speaks hebrew and he told me it was an israeli nationalist slogal. i alert the mods about this, and the mod i speak to says they'll talk to the other mods.

they tell me to suck it up and they won't do anything. it's not a political space after all (LIKE FUCKING HELL IT ISN'T). this was already too far but i didn't do anything, except privately explain to the mod that this was the wrong decision and why, and ask they convey that to the rest of the mod team.

next day a mod shuts down a conversation that drifted into politics.

so i just fucking posted a song in solidarity with palestine, announced i was leaving because the server is tolerating zionists, and left. wish i'd posted screenshots of the mod convo before i left but hindsight is 20/20 i guess. i was told afterwards by a member that this guy had been much more vocal about his zionism on another server and caused a whole drama.

just. how hard is it to not include reactionaries in queer spaces? this place would boot out anyone who came in with fascist profile shit. zionism is a form of fascism but somehow that doesn't count? like no fash but sure, you support an ethnostate actively committing genocide, why don't you come into our safe space? well great, now there is no safe space. i loved that place. it was the only social space i felt safe in a sexual sense.

does anyone have a recommendation of a queer kink discord server than does not include zionists?

My tits really hurt. I guess this is just something that happens when I get a cold now

Edit: god this really feels like a monkey’s paw curse. Jokes on them though cause I can take it

Edit 2: KITTY NO!! DONT STEP THERE!!!

Feeling so much queer joy today 💖

I'm SO glad I made it passed the initial excitement phase. I was so worried that I was only doing this because it's exciting, and, once the excitement wore off, I wouldn't be interested anymore.

But the absolute normalcy of my gender is SO much better. When I can present fem in front of my friends and hear my pronouns just as a normal fact of life rather than something I have to build up courage for, it just HITS.

The more I come out of the closet, the more real it all feels, and doubts start melting away. I honestly can't wait to try E!

Hello new trans mega

I went for two different walks today and my legs are feeling p o w e r f u l

Night walk had a pretty moon view

✨

We need more trans fox girls!

Let me show you in to the trans furries.
- Trans furries are great
Trans fox ladies are usually fun per my very extensive sample size of that one super hot fox lady I briefly dated so I agree
- My sample size of one is someone who streams sometimes, but your description seems to match my experience, so I think it safe to generalize.
What about trans shark girls?
- They're scary... but in a good way?

Might just eat cookies for dinner

transness will continue until morale improves

Continuing to struggle with the feeling like I don’t belong, neither as a trans person or even more broadly as a queer person. It feels like a joke—I’m just a straight cis dude in all but name.

a second uninstall has hit tiktok

imma try to work past my lifelong posting anxiety and lurk less, i have gay takes that must be heard

The radical left has converted me from a puppygirl to a catgirl :3

Edit: my PFP was briefly slightly nsfw hope nobody saw that

For some reason my tax refund got super delayed this year, but I finally got it! First time in forever I don't feel broke. Time to get some cute winter outfits

Hear me out; what if we just gave everyone with treatment resistant depression and dissociation a taste of HRT and saw what happened?

!CW Venting, social dysphoria:!<

!Feeling kind of shitty and just generally lost in my transition. There's a lot of stuff about it that feels daunting and that I don't know how to move forward with. Lately I've been wishing I had a cis girl friend who could help me out, and be a kind of 'big sister' I could go to for advice. But most of the women I'm friends with are very butch, and haven't felt super equipped to help me. And the one friend I have who has been able to help, moved multiple States away, and while she's been able to help me with some stuff, the distance has impacted our friendship, and I'm just feeling sad about the whole thing!<

I play it cool here, but every week, in my head I'm like, "this is the week I'm going to tell them I'm actually a cis guy and that I can't post with them anymore 😭"

Lmao so deranged

Gonna

and

for a while, comrades. Got some things I need to do. Be back soon! Make sure to keep the cis down in my absence.

I remember jumping into the trans coffin in dark souls 2 and never noticing the effect since I was always beef jerky in armor

was in for a surpise when I used an effigy and changed armor

trans linux mascot

If I backtrack on this in a week, I'm blaming the carousel

If I were to ever look at myself in the mirror and see a pretty person, I'm not sure if I'd have the emotional bandwidth to be able to control what happened next.

TW: Discussion of health ::: spoiler spoiler A year ago I had a pilonidal abscess and had to get it drained. Now I have a cyst on the same area. :::

The gift that keeps on giving, despite your wishes.
I think your spoiler tag is broken somehow but I'm not sure what's wrong with it. It isn't showing on my end.

Goodnight comrades, here's part of the code of conduct that i think about alot

Be aware of your own enjoyment of the site.
If you find yourself no longer having fun, do something else. There are many different comms on Hexbear, and many different ways to shitpost and have fun.
If the site as a whole is just not cutting it for you, take a break. We'll still be here when you get back. Nothing should compel you to stay.

https://hexbear.net/code_of_conduct

ANTI CISGENDER AKTION

ANTI CISGENDER AKTION
- ANTI CISGENDER AKTION

Good morning TO YOU

I ship her with Firefox

They do often ship those two together, yes, many distros do that.
- It's me. I'm a distro

i just stand in the women's room usually (blessed with no american style gaps under the stalls where i live lol)

you should do it :3

My friend just sent me a decade old photo of myself when I had a huge beard. Just wearing swim shorts. I'm having complicated feelings.

Like, idk... I'm handsome, but it's okay to think you're handsome and still want to transition. Sometimes feels like I'm fucking something up.

I mean, I look at recent photos of me in makeup/dresses, and I'm still handsome/pretty, but... Idk, it would've just been easier I guess.

Also I had super hairy legs. REALLY glad those are gone. I had actually forgotten what they looked like lol

did not know about the trans Linux fox girl, ty for making my day better

You ever think that

Real

Also hi

down with cis

down with cis
- Down with cis!

tiddies hurting good today

can i say something?

Gonna try linux desktop again. Is there a preferred distro among people who contribute to the kernel? Not that I likely will, I just want to flatter myself lol

Just a dogshit intrusive thought

i've been a mac/linux person for a long long time but i've just kind of happened across the money for a macbook a couple times which has kept me from having to go full linux - i got one from a uni course a few years ago. this one is nowhere near obsolete and i'm sure i have years left with it. but helping my partner set up a linux laptop has made me feel p good about the fact that simply there is no financial way for me to continue my mac habit. i've been kinda stuck on it for so long partly due to disability because for some reason the macbooks give me way less pain to use. but money is money no matter how disabled i am, and i think i could cope with the same laptop as they have, physically, and mentally i am feeling good about a linux switch. so i'd already been thinking a lot about linux when i saw this adorable trans mascot post. so thank you!

yessssss
more trans linux enjoyers
Do like Xenia does and get a thinkpad. My main computer is a $200 refurb thinkpad from eBay. They are known for good Linux support and because they are popular there is a big online community in case of trouble.
But your existing apple hardware can last a long time with Linux. Unlike Mac os it isn't designed to get shitty after a few years to encourage buying a new one. I also have a 10+ years old Mac mini as a secondary computer and it runs decently with Debian.
- i like my power i'm afraid, and i'm not really interested in a second computer. i'm more likely gonna just like try and save enough money over the next few years for a gaming laptop since i know i have a long time left in this one. i have considered installing linux on this laptop though. i looked into it a few years ago and saw that there was something in development for the M1 chips but that it wasn't finished at the time, so i kinda shelved it. but maybe i should check back in. it seemed like the new chip architechture needed some work done before linux could actually run.

Thought Complete: Poly-Transbian Underground

[Internalize]

Next year will be the year of the Linux desktop, just you wait! :smuglord:

unchecked transphobia! at the Irish web fishing server:( just got the game and now I never wanna play it again. im prejudiced against the country folk on this island ngl. fuck me for wandering out of overtly communist online spaces for like, 20 minutes i guess lol. it's bad out there.

Getting both the flu and covid shots at the same time was probably a bad idea

especially since I haven’t been feeling great anyway lately. My whole body aches and I have a fever

Debian 4 lyfe

am i avoiding people if i see that they've messaged me but keep putting off replying, even though i want to

I texted a couple of my local trans friends about having some sort of friendsgiving thing the weekend before regular thanksgiving. I used to get invited to those in college and I miss them. Kind of to my surprise, everyone was really excited and like 3 people volunteered to help cook. I'm honestly so happy I have queer friends who I can recreate college with lol.

under socialism all trans people will be provided up to 5 melee weapons and a wall mount for them, paid for by the state

i use Arch btw

no i don't i use Fedora

we use NixOS btw
- Braver than the troops
  I tried NixOS a couple of times, had no idea what I was doing to the point where I just went back to running arch or fedora.
Arch is nice and all, but you should totally try using Fedora
I mean, if you have a setup that works and all, it's probably not going to be much of a difference, minus getting SELinux and Secure Boot (unless you already set both of those up). I do like how quickly arch is able to boot, not that Fedora is much slower. It just uses GRUB instead of systemd-boot.
- technically i lied, I use Nobara
arch on the laptop, fedora on the desktop 😎

Lost so much shit since I started wearing women's pants. I keep not bringing a purse because I think I won't need it then I just feel my wallet slip out of my pocket after a minute of walking

Met a frog friend on the window of the gym outside in front of the treadmill I was using

(also I think I'm developing a crush on somebody there and it's the first time I've felt kinda like that about someone in like half a decade and idk really how to feel about it. I'm really ruminating hard about "wait we're they just being nice or was there something there?" I'm really bad at this but they're really cute and I just feel like a gross ogre talking to them by comparison and can't get a read on the tone of our interactions. Their smile seemed genuine to me though and they're friendly? Idk)

When I'm around new people who I've introduced myself as my chosen name to, I feel comfortable and amazing and more able to be myself. But when I'm around people I already knew before beginning this journey, I feel this weird tension and I'm not sure what to make of it.

another serious storm expected, and we're usually cut off for a few days to weeks when this happens. managed to go down for supplies, food, gasoline in case we lose power again, pick up medication, take medication in order to have vaguely functioning body, and make preparations for the storm. would have liked to be able to fix the roof leaks before the storm but unfortunately that was beyond my capabilities. but i got a whole bunch of dry wood before it all gets rained on so we should be able to stay warm and dryish.

was a p successful day, especially considering how hard everything has been recently. am proud of myself. and resting by the fire and keeping warm :3

i need to get a job with normal hours

i feel so antisocial

PYRRHO BUDDHISM CONNECTION?

If anyone else is curious

I miss the good old days when men would name their sons “Gaylord”

i am constantly bullied every time i want to say something on here. people from all around the world gather to call me "pee pee girl" and push my face into the dirt...

fuck this past week every which way

fuck it in the pores

XENIA MEGA

In my wife’s Snuggie; got that girl stank going on

OH MY GOSH I almost forgot to mention some progress I made today. I was trying to set up Bluetooth in the car, and it always repeats certain phrases back at me. I dread it for this exact reason, and I've avoided setting it up until now with that being one of many reasons. However, it had to happen, so I went to do it and put on my best fem voice. Imagine my shock when it spits my voice back out at me, and it sounds like a mature woman! I don't even know how I did it, and I don't want to listen to it again in case it ruins what might be magic, but in that moment I felt such intense euphoria. I then enjoyed the convenience of having my music on Bluetooth while no longer having to deal with my static-ridden aux cable.

I haven't posted the last couple days, but I have been feeling good. Like myself again. Just haven't had a lot to say or talk about. There's been a couple things on my mind, but they're not really worth getting into (especially when overall I'm doing well). But, in good news, a friend reached out to me. This is the friend I came out to a little while ago, but we hadn't talked since then. Sounds like he just got busy with life stuff. Also, going to do something I've been needing to do for a little bit now but have been putting off

FLOOOOOFY WOOOOOFY FOX!!!

Looking back I'm surprised how long it took for my egg to crack. I watched the Korra avatar and was wishing I was a lesbian, saw the Netflix Shera and wished I was able to transform into a woman and be a lesbian with Catra. Also watched some anime where a guy cross dressed for like one episode and I was wishing I could "cross dress" myself. Wild how oblivious I was

Watched ~~part of~~ a voice training video and now youtube thinks I'm serious. Stop reminding me of my weakness

Webfishing clocked both me and my sister. The first chest she opened awarded her the pan title, and the first chest I opened awarded me the bi title. How did it know these things? This doesn't change the fact that I'm still going to run the Good Girl title though.

Haven't seen music posting in a while so here's what I've been listening to this past week apparently

https://lastcollage.io/

Don’t let British people convince you they are smarter than Americans, they may be worse

okay wait what the fuck happened this weekend and why am i somehow a part of it

going outside in the same make-up i passed out in yesterday because it's brat summer

You, you have won the internet. Can I just say this? My heckin' doggo and I both are applauding and tipping our collective fedora

I feel like a brand new person right now

It took me wayyyy too long to realize why there were no new posts in the mega every time I have refreshed today

A friend of mine, who I dated briefly, keeps staying up late but being bossy/dommy and telling her to go to bed apparently is the secret key to her heart - and I'd rather not tread back over that same trail. But I still think she should SLEEP

Just had my first electrolysis session and hoooooooly shit that was unpleasant. Way worse than laser. The tech was great but goddamn it was sooooo slow and a type of pain im not great with

Starting a new life in a new place and it’s going better than expected. Kindly issue is that I’m scared something will happen to sabotage it, like it’s too good to be true, or something I don’t really deserve. I guess there’s not much else I can do besides try to stop catastrophizing and make the best of it while I can.

Anyways, I know it’s been a stressful time for everyone with the elections and the struggle sessions on the site haven’t helped much. How’s everyone holding up?

Also on the topic of the election outcome, we had a good discussion in tracha (which you should all join btw, link in sidebar) about options for trans people in the US wanting to leave. I believe Canada lets in USians for up to 6 months with just a birth certificate and photo ID, which could be useful.

Anyone else have any good knowledge or strategies they might want to share for queer people who feel under threat?

I don't know why I'm spending so much mental energy on me being catgirl vs doggirl. And why is it stressing me out

My sister is complaining I inherited our mom's hair genetics and she didn't, but like, at least you inherited her chromosomes, don't think you should complain

Bureaucrat posting has been a wholesome ending to site drama

I know I have to buy winter clothes, but I found this really pretty summer dress...

getting out of bed does be hard this time of year

LISTEN UP, LIBERAL:

IF TRANS WOMEN REALLY ARE WOMEN THEN HOW COME MY KIDS NEVER TALK TO ME???

I almost forgot to do my injection today

My time's gonna be limited going forward but getting the urge to do all 326 routes of shadow the hedgehog again, got reloaded 1.2 running on dolphin with the widescreen going. Got the added S ranks, got some tweaks, got a timer for each route and got the tab open for the library routes. It's very much a comfort game at this point

After a long day at work I can see why people get a few beers but replace beer with shadow the hedgehog 2005

cat is being ableist by not coming closer when asking for cuddles

girl facts I wish I knew sooner: apparently the longer your hair gets, the LESS often you're supposed to wash it wtf. i thought i was supposed to wash it more. this probably explains why my hair is always going fucking everywhere

Can someone tell me to but the cute dresses I've been putting off because of anxiety?

trans friends: relaxing to webfishing

me: queueing cs2 to unwind

Web fishing isn't on GOG :catgirl-huh:

I'm going to have to fold and install Steam again, for Webfishing, VRChat maybe, and all of the indie games that aren't on any other platforms... :catgirl-cry:

My computer was so clean, so FOSS...

Pressing "F" to pay respects right now.

When you have to let your facial hair grow out for electrolysis 🤢

Sicky

Where is the

emoticon from?

I think my feet have changed because my winter boots from last year no longer fit. Which on one hand cool because estrogen is working, on the other hand now I need to buy new/used winter boots

It's another midnighter

It was for good reasons though, so I'll give it a pass

Unfortunately for me, my body won't

I set up Fedora on the extra PC and turned that into a media center for my partner and then shortly after I was like fuck it and switched to Fedora on my main PC too. I am now Windows free

It's been (mostly) smooth. Luckily I had already switched to a lot of open source apps last time I tried Linux so there's not much of an adjustment phase this time

pee pee

Whew im at the theater to see smile 2 and had to step out for a lil bit which is a first for me

Anyway, back to it. The first one was good and im enjoying this one so far

Edit: unitentional slur, sorry!

Does anyone have experience getting their gender marker corrected on their social security (US)? I have the passport appointment scheduled, and will be ponying up to get that fast tracked, but I a bit confused on the SSN process, specifically when it comes to ID. It sounds like I'd need to mail in an ID if I want to do it by mail, and I am worried about documents getting lost. Is anyone familiar with the in-person process?

Misgendering, sexual harassment ::: spoiler spoiler I have to do a lot of interacting with the public as part of a socialist thing, and I've realized the hotter I look that day the more people go out of their way to misgender me.

So they're failing at making me feel bad about gender but I still feel icky because its literally just so fucking overtly trans coded sexual harassment :::

I need to find a social space to use for dating but ugh, I've gotten so picky, except the folks whove made me picky are comrades and I don't date comrades! Ugh! I have a partner but sometimes there are aches that are outside their wheelhouse.
Does anyone else get a really weird mix of dysphoria and euphoria while looking at Chappell Roan in drag? I'm trying to sort out my feelings there but getting swamped by "pretty gender-non-conforming lesbian ahhhh" when I try to.

Idk how this is the first time I'm hearing of Xenia but I love her and her story <3

YURI!!!

i want to say something but someone has to give me permission.

DAMN IT I WANTED TO WORK ON WRITING MY BOOK BUT I ENDED UP WRITING AN ESSAY ON MY GENDER THOUGHTS

can i say something?

we finally have pones on the site

!cute@hexbear.net

my boyfriend is listening to Chapell Roan again and he just looked at me and gave a goofy grin and said "this one is pretty gay"

i paid for someone's hormones cuz i accidentally got a whole bunch of money because trump winning the election made my bitcoin stash skyrocket and the person was struggling to buy crypto and i just wanted them to have the thing

Gonna be hosting the Puppy Girl Poker Tournament, I still no clue how poker works and just gonna be handing everyone a participation trophy at the end. If I do well enough I might get the gig hosting cat girl mahjong another game I've no clue how it works after 7 yakuza games

I misread the "Linux" on her shirt as "Ligma" multiple times. Deadass. I keep having to double check.

with all the privacy that i've had with my partner away i...

...cried endlessly for two days while watching Wandering Son.

why tf did i tell my doctor the effect i wanted most out of hrt was more feelings?? this shit's too much (jk crying is euphoric)

Me, four hours ago: hmm I need to work plenty today

Me, now: WOOOOF WOOF BARK

Started playing Deltarune recently. It's reminding me of why I enjoyed Undertale so much, in a good way, because I'm having a lot of fun with it

Also going to be using these a lot more often, didn't realize there were so many Deltarune emojis on this site until I typed in the keyword

<-- These are great

after three months my insurance finally gets back to me to say "we're not paying for your therapist lmao" i am going to scream

I have, once more, been extremely gay

nyan

how the fuck did the shipping get my dead name printed on the label of my package? this is bullshit wtf

at least i got my new shoes now. hopefully they fit

XENIA ayy

What's the connection between Linux and trans identities?

The post says it was drawn by someone who likes Linux and wanted an alternative to tux; is that the extent?

Alot of trans people are computer programmers.
- i had a "duh" moment when you shared that; my identifiable trans colleagues did seem almost common before i switched to working from home and i didn't realize that until now how well represented they are on the development side of the tech field, similar to the foreign born latinos.
  it's a FASCINATING phenomenon for me as a developer since i did IT for 15 years before becoming one and my experiences from my other identities (eg chicano, indigenous, cis-gay) have given me eye opening experiences into how WILDLY different the software development side of the tech industry is compared to the operations side in my country.

🌰

::: spoiler personal growth, net positive ig, tttt words

Got emotionally critical hit by a single sentence someone i know and look up to said earlier tonight and like, it was so pin point accurate that it basically made me feel all my inadequacies and spent like 30 minutes crying alone in a darkened room listening to ethel cain songs and then came out of it feeling like a new person.

Basically the upshot of this is that ive been reexaming a lot of my habits and i think im going to do away with thinking in terms of like AGP / HSTS bullshit and other tttt dumb shit. Also i deleted my twitter account. its weird, i feel very at peace rn in a way i haven't felt in a long time.

Idk i might also check out of hb after 4 years here or so ig. Imo having a single comment affect my psyche so much i reach inner peace and completely log off is honestly way, way, way funnier of a bit than adding this ⬇️ as my pfp could ever have been
\

It sounds pretentious and dumb but like, i get now this concept of zen inner peace now, i feel completely calm, like resentments and dislikes i felt before dont mean as much as they did before

I need pussy

either bottom surgery or someone else's pussy i need both tbh

::: spoiler anti-volcel aktion

Yet again confirming that girldick is pretty and wonderful

:::

Yo does anyone remember if there's a version of A Christmas Carol where there is a fade to black at the end where it's revealed that Tiny Tim dies within a year of the end of the movie

Thank the gods for psilocybin

I keep groceries in the back seat because the trunk is full of bodies

Hey, guess I'm gonna use the anonymity the Bureaucracy affords us. I just saw the current icon of the new !cute@hexbear.net community. It's currently an animation of Fluttershy from MLP G4 vibing and I started to wonder how many people here were/are bronies (in the widest sense possible). I watched the show during its original run and I was strongly aware that I wasn't in the target-demographic, which caused me shame even if I never shared it with anyone irl. I only consciously started questioning my gender long after the show had its run, but now I start to wonder how many eggs were/are in the fandom of MLP.

In retrospective it's kind of obvious why I found great joy in watching that show and I guess I just wanted to ask if others here share a similar experience?

Imagine a girl with a really long and big tongue

And don't make it lewd or horny 😡

note to self : don't use any kinda trans lingo outside trans spaces. got some dude trying to start shit elsewhere cuz i said a character was gender

I was absent for a few weeks. Sure glad decades didn't happen in the meantime

Learning the term gender envy pretty cool, after I learned I'm pan there was still something missing when I tried to describe my attraction to some people. Normally I'm pretty

but maybe I should have some thoughts especially when it means taking a more active participation in my identity (by maybe I mean I should). As much as I might lament never having been in a relationship it's on me to figure some stuff out first

Well I'm starting Naltrexone today. I really hope it's enough to keep me out of rehab

Getting some routine blood work done, and I asked the doctor to check my T levels.

He asked if I'm "having problems in the male department"

Why, yes, doctor, you might say I am

A few weeks ago I realized I wasn't paying attention and going too fast while drawing my anticistaminesut of the vial. I looked at my shot and it was like half bubble. So uhhh, I stopped shooting big bubbles into my leg. I think it's week 3 of taking an actual dose. On top of that, I lost the little bit of alcoholism related weight/bloating I had on my rum tum tumbly. Feeling really cute and content right now.

BUT I've been cutting myself shaving a bunch now, so I need to step up my hair removal game. What is the consensus on cheap/easy facial hair removal? Do I want an epilator?

Does anyone know if old tubeless sealant in bike tyres needs to be completely removedd or can I leave a little bit of residue before adding new sealant and re-seating the tire?

I saw a gender affirming doctor the other day and it’s really funny because they were unsure about upping my finasteride to higher dose because it might have side effects, and they were like “don’t you just want oestrogen?”. And I’m like “pretty sure that would have more side effects”.

Doing baseline bloods though in case I do decide and I’ve just upped the finasteride anyway.

Marble Zone underrated

I had quite the fun and exhausting night last night, right here on Hexbear.net all thanks to Bureaucrat. I really love this bit.

Transes, am I supposed to brush my hair or not?

god i love being a switch

One of the back/neck/arm machines at the gym has the font on it from Sonic Rivals so I use it a lot. I quite like the rival games so I guess this works for me.

it's been like 5 years since i've wanted a tattoo and I still can't decide on what to get

i'm thinking something on my leg...

my partner is listening to chappell roan this morning while he's working and i feel like i'm missing out (i am listening to weezer instead)

I "defeated" 60 land leeches. Mao would be proud

I'm watching MCR in Seattle, hell yeah

Since Catradora_Stalinism has been gone a while that means I can now be the one true Catradora Stalinist

None of my friends said happy birthday to Shadow the Hedgehog (2005) today, actually messed up

i now understand webfishing yes it is good i caught a branch and was delighted

One week of HRT today and all that's really changed is my balls hurt

im playing animal crossing new horizons again

might have gotten a wee tipsy last night

it's funny how two drinks can legitimately get me drunk. a good value too. I just watched the menu and that was good and ate bean borgors

I also did my injection today finally

I'm planning for the future too

I really hope people to believe in me when I say things about myself and how I feel

goodnightt

If dysphoria is lower, does it mean other emotions will be stronger? Like I'm feeling more lonely rn

I'm thinking about leasing a new car. My car is done, 13 years old, not worth even changing the oil. The brakes are gone, the passenger front tire leaks constantly (I've rotated the tired plenty of times, this is the 3rd new set that's been on it it's always that one tire).

I'm planning on moving to a city with half-decent transit the next couple years. Hence leasing instead of buying. When I lived in the city, I had a car but didn't need it ever - I just took the train and the bus. Mostly my ex drove it to their work. We lived near a grocery story and not far from our other friends.

British people don’t know anything

Haven't painted my nails in a bit and for the best, got an interview tomorrow and I gotta look not too hot to intimidate the interviewers. I'll give it a month if I get in to secure my position before I get back to it, maybe finally get some high end nail polish and not the dollar store stuff I find.

just cut my hair for the second time, i cannot believe how much it grew in 2 months, like i lost a couple of handfuls of hair just to get to the same length

Id really like to start taking voice training seriously but i find it so hard to do it consistently like so much in my life (thanks adhd). Ive been thinking a lot about what sort of voice i want too but im not sure how to achieve it really. Getting gendered correctly when i tried to use a higher, friendlier and more traditionally feminine voice but its not what i really want really? I think i want something like a cross between the two voice actors for V from cyberpunk. Mostly staying at my current register or even a little deeper maybe with some of the growl from the male VA but with like a distinctly feminine sound but still reaaaally fuckin cool like the female VA. Is such a thing even possible?? Am i poser for wanting to sound like a videogame character?? How would i even achieve this

speaking of lewd

Fun fact, t4t doesn't just mean "trans for trans", it has "normal" definitions too. (Traning for trainers, etc.)

FUCKING 1 TILE AWAY FROM A POTENTIAL KAZOE YAKUMAN AND NOBODY WANTED TO DISCARD THE 1 OR 5 SOU AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I've started saying "yippee" as a reaction a lot more since starting HRT

I click on one dating advice vid and now the algorithm keeps giving me more, have to stop myself from doing nothing but watch them all week. Been through that before way too many times but I keep hoping one of them will make the whole meeting people and being vulnerable part easier, got trouble expressing interest in people because of fear of rejection.

I kinda wanted to ask for pronouns to be added but it feels like a bad time with the ongoing upheaval

edit: If any kind soul would like to contact the pronoun wizard and add sae/saer to the list I'd really appreciate it

My breaking bad hyperfixation is the most obsessed anyone has ever been about something

Does being nonbinary automatically make me trans?

The latter is a vent, the former is talking about ~~fucking~~ pronouns

still nomany to webfishing with :c

reading a bible written in japanese to speedrun getting to heaven

Trans ppl r cool, so says the happy puppy

Uber should pay me a million dollars for my idea Uber Rainbow that is Uber Black for LGBT as you upcharges queers under the guise of increased security (which they won’t do)

Meow

I've obtain a bass pro shop hat from the thrift shop, gonna figure out what stats it'll confer on me later when I take it to work

How bad is it that I accidentally injected a decent amount (0.01-0.05 ml) into my thigh? I switched needles after drawing the estrogen and forgot to push the air out. I stopped after I realized but I don’t know if any of the air came out

Power for those who can fuck it

Freedom for those who can find it

Sex for those who can buy it

Television today never lies

What did you say?

Atari Teenage Riot!

:))))) new calf boots came in and they fit like a dream. Surprisingly comfortable too. Snagged them on a hell of a sale and they fit my big ass t girl feet :))))

Did some gender yesterday, applied for a manual job so put some insoles in my shoes to get to 6' and put some suspenders on to make myself look stronger

. I probably was gonna get the job anyway but wanted to impress and try something. Gender sure is stuff, I know on the other end growing up I always thought girls with eye shadow where hot as hell and then I tried eye shadow and found out I got the same stat boost

honestly I can fuck with all make up other than lipstick since I like to eat stuff.

If this account still exists and is functional, any chance it could host a c/traa megathread?

finally got round to watching the zone of interest

Any time you question if you're trans or cis, you have to add another trans to transgender

I enjoy the novelty of meditating in shorts and a t shirt in the cold rain in public.

Another midnighter due to my excessive course-workload, AND Asahi's decided to start having visible glitches in the File Manager. Both are my fault, because I took on more work than I could reasonably handle, and I tried to get fancy with a security patch on Asahi that's causing the visual bugs even after I removed the patch from my system.

I'm really breaking the "I post better when I'm tired" rule, I feel like I've just reached a point where I've lapped my maximum spoon count in negative spoons

how tf do i always keep walking like this. "oh yeah i'll just walk down to the stores for a bit for a little exercise", i'll do it, feel bad because i felt like i could have walked further, then check and i just walked almost 4 miles

I love my trans comrades

I was always warned when I was younger that as you get older, the years will start to fly by.

Bullshit. I'm just in my 30s but still, bullshit. Years still feel just as long as they always took. I was a different person 5 years ago, I still feel the weight of all of those 260+ weeks. It doesn't feel any shorter. I never got a "blink oops now it's 5 years in the future" moment. I have young siblings, the youngest is 18. It wasn't like I blinked and they were adults.

It's not something I've wanted to happen or even particularly dreaded, but adults of all stripes warned me at my young tender age that it would happen. Well? Just cause they were drifting along in a haze doesn't mean that's my fate. That's on them. Reminds me that there's people who say they get in a car, drive to work, and then realize they don't remember any of their drive. But doing that for everything I guess

Had a smut dream but I don't remember any aspect of it that was the smut. Like in my dream I was feeling as if it was really high quality (probably not)

My sister got webfishing and is grinding XP. I think she's liking the game too.

I have gone days laughing at the absurdity of thinking. More often the thoughts fight themselves. Today was the latter but I was reminded of the exercise to ask who is perceiving what I think I perceive. “Who thinks this, who thinks that,” makes it sound like my mind is treating me like a dog and that is fun/ny.

We should add a Xenia emoji to hexbear. (perhaps the !libre@hexbear.net logo? (or maybe some other image at https://xenia-linux-site.glitch.me/ ))

i am attempting a scientific experiment. i have been using a plant oil that is supposed to act as a topical antiandrogen that reduces sensitivity to androgens in the places u rub it in, leading to less hair. i have been using it on my face for a couple weeks and it feels like it's changing.

BUT

i plan to conduct an experiment on my arm hairs. i'm gonna do the exact same hair removal on each arm, but i'm gonna put the oil on one arm, for 6 months. i will report on the results.

you can technically do t4t in Dragon Age Veilguard

Me: "Mom, can we get Handsome Jack from Borderlands?"

Mom: "We have Handsome Jack from Borderlands at home"

Handsome Jack from Borderlands at home:

I've been in such a pissed off mood the last like day or so, idk what my problem is but I'm going to end up snapping at someone. Was fighting with some computer thing earlier (I've put it aside for now, still want to get it done today though...). Anyway at least it isn't directed inward right now but I am going to fight a mfer if I get the chance.

I tried switching to Linux Mint like... 5 or 6 years ago but I had some problems getting work-critical software to play nice so I ended up doing the walk of shame back to Win10.

Someone gave me their old computer so it seems like a good opportunity to experiment with Linux again since it won't be interfering with my primary PC. I don't know much about distros, is Linux Mint still the best choice for Windows refugees or do I have other options?

Interpersonal relationships are not helping me whatsoever so I've decided I'm simply going to stop being lame and simply become good.

Doggirls rule, catgirls drool

How many of you would join me for Webfishing later, assuming I actually manage to get my work done? Feel like it would be fun to run a server with you all

dumbest girl alive here with another sticky & steamy update!

How do I kiss trans

Not sure what to do. High dose estrogen injections + progesterone is causing a bit of breast growth, but also mild acne and (more crucially) unwanted body hair growth.

Comrades! I am trying to go for a cyberpunk look for a show tomorrow and want to do some facial wiring with the metallic powder i got (mehron gold - sooooooo pretty). How do i get crisp, clean, straight lines??? What kind of brush do i need?

My fit today is so good

Does anyone else get egg vibes from reading Tatsuki Fujimoto? I feel like he writes women characters way too well to be cis, but maybe he’s just extremely thoughtful about it. Anyways, stayed up late last night reading Look Back. Was very very good and I’ll probably watch the new anime of it today. Goodbye, Eri was also great if you haven’t already read it.