Anyone here simply not want to be perceived?
Anyone here simply not want to be perceived?
Not related to online interactions but IRL i want to be an actual ghost. A creature living in the walls. Burrow a collection of interconnected tunnels to scuttle around in. Live in an underground bunker never to be found again.
I've been considering getting a really remote and lonely job just so I don't have to deal with being seen in my work hours.
Sometimes i daydream about being able to just slip into a pocket dimension where its just me and walk around the world just looking at things with no one else around. Or even just being a ghost would be rly cool. Just float anywhere and look at stuff
did you guys hear something
Crazy. This is just a blank post made by no one.
Yeah I think it's about me wishing I could just be a passive observer and not have any obligations (could be related to pathological demand avoidance/autism).
When I think about life after death, I think my "heaven" would be just me existing as a formless consciousness that can float around wherever I feel like, observing things around the world, or even around the galaxy/universe.
This mostly just means endless pain and people failing to comprehend me and making it clear they don't want to know me through their actions
I saw an article lately that there were not enough lighthouse keepers for remote islands and I pondered for a bit if I should drop everything and apply.
https://bc.ctvnews.ca/want-to-be-lighthouse-keeper-pay-increased-for-b-c-job-posting-1.6688329
One thing to be aware of is that lighthouse keeping is not an email job and is not low skill either. You actually need to be able to work on/fix electrical/mechanical equipment.
I feel like you would be able to while learningon the spot. At least manage to. I didn't mean that this would be easy. But since you would have so much time to give to it, you could learn about it.
That's still a thing? Wonder if any of them have decent Internet
Exactly my thought
For me it’s a catch 22 because I don’t like to be perceived, but I also like to be around other people
Sometimes I really want to be perceived but only in those moments and only by specific people. Otherwise yes it would be great if I could just pass through the world doing my thing enjoying it without needing anyone else to recognize my existence that would be great thank you.
Same, I just need like, one person who understands me and I'll be completely happy to just stay at home forever and never interact with any other human beings ever again.
Constantly masking is so exhausting, especially when most environments are so stressful to me. Just let me do my weird fidgets and self-talk in peace.
I think this is a trauma reaction to having a history of being seen negatively and feeling an inability to be seen any other way. Source: me too, I just try to not be in my head about it.
Go to Japan. Apparently it is considered rude to look at people so people all go around not looking at each other. You’ll never feel more alone!
And if you're foreign you'll be perceived even less than the locals because they just generally don't like you.
But if looking is rude, you might get looked at more because they dislike you, right?
I personally wish I could just be a brain in a jar. I don't want a body or food or interaction. I just want to think.
yeah all this corporeal form maintenance bullshit fuckin sucks. i'm trying to focus and do a thing, whoops my body needs to expel excess fluids, now I have to stop what I'm doing and lose my focus to go to the bathroom. really getting into a project, too bad body needs rest, time for eight hours of get fucked. i don't want this mortal form, just let me be a being of pure energy already
I feel that, I want to do calisthenics in the park nearby, or learn how to rollerblade, but I hate being that conspicuous.
I think I'd feel less awkward living in a bigger city where I can disappear into crowds.
I do love the anonymity of the big city for real.
Literally me fr fr. Not just as a physical entity, but as a conscious being with a discernible personality.
me
i want to wear pretty clothes, but i also hate standing out. if i could wear pretty clothes and no one could perceive me that'd be so ideal
This is what I'm saying! I just want to try some stuff out but, noooo, gotta go to the office.
I aim to become the literal spectre of communism. I will haunt Europe so hard, I stg
I wish I was perceived more. I wish I was a gorgeous 6'6" supermodel who turned heads everywhere I went.
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Antisocial behavior is reactionary. I blame your desire to not be seen on capitalist society. I believe you would not have these feelings if you were in a better environment.
Symptoms of social alienation. Surrounded by people but all alone in an atomized society. No meaningful connections to form, a social contract where by default we owe no one and no one owes us. Social structures and communities we exist in rather than belonging to. Outside an isolated nuclear family every relationship is one where we are meant to be in competition rather than cooperation. Why not become a ghost in a society like this one, especially when one lacks the antisocial/psychopathic and narcissistic traits it rewards?
I feel so seen...
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please stop
I love being the center of attention. I love making an entrance. I also have a social battery that only lasts 2 hours and afterward the only interaction I want is snuggles. (or sex)
Sorta kinda. I’ve learned that people tend to freak when I say “I don’t want to be perceived” (actually landed me in a mental hospital as a teen 😀) but yeah I don’t like that people can form opinions about me and I’ve sorta operated that “I” don’t exist in the same way as the people around me for the longest time
The only work around I’ve found but that comes with other issues 😎😎😎
I enjoy having interesting conversations and such, but most of the time I would probably be fine with not being noticed by strangers at all. I think this is partly why I sort of enjoy navigating through crowds, I'm barely perceived by others for the short time I am in their vicinity.
I think another aspect is the conspicuous nature of identity. I generally don't feel like announcing details about myself to others in that way. I find more value in watching how people act then evaluating how they look if that makes sense.
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
Yeah. I hate my neurodivergence and introversion being hard to relate to because I'm an alien to eveyone. I'm tired. Decades of the same shit. No matter the job. I'm not going to be perky go clucky whe. i have no reason to. I don't interact with customers most of the time. When I do I'm wonderful to them. I live virtually alone. I work alone. I love being in my own little headspace instead of frat boying it up. Sorry that doesn't look like a damned perfectly perked Ken doll every microsecond.
I tried this last review to plead to work only the off shifts if some people have an issue with me so I don't keep having this so called perception issue. Yeah you'll need to have more people which you won't do anyways. Do I do my job? Yes? Then we're good here.
Leave me alone.
Honestly, no... wtf... you know how DPRK feels like before and after the Eastern Bloc collapsed... that's what I felt like, during Primary school with friends vs High School, without much friends...
I've already had enough of such experiences you talk about, but I mean, you could try.... it's easy to do, in my opinion
To be not perceived and just phase out of existence for a while is fine, but to avoid others in order to seek it out seems troubling...
no please pay attention to meeeee
A lot of the time, yes. But also I want positive attention a lot. Really, if I'm out in public, the chances of attention being positive is pretty low, so I'm very anxious about it.
Hearing my name makes my skin crawl.
Last time i went to the beach, i went for a walk around 3 AM while there was a full moon - it was like I'd stepped into an alternate dimension where i was the only person alive, even the beach cops had stopped patrolling. I wish i could slip into full-moon night-beach world on-demand.
Literally thought about myself as "relentlessly perceived" this very morning
Oh I know of that longing and while I can't tell you it's the same thing, being a woman over forty kinda feels like that.
Sometimes, like being ignored at the doctor's office,I don't like it so much,but most of the time it's such a relief not being noticed at all!
Absolutely! I daydream about being invisible when I feel socially awkward. I love listening to When I Hear My Name by The White Stripes when I'm really feeling it. It plays in my head when I feel awkward.
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
i dont even like looking at myself
Too short and fat
