Trans Megathread for the week of September 16th to 23rd, 2024/Unjust Depths unofficial promotion
Trans Megathread for the week of September 16th to 23rd, 2024/Unjust Depths unofficial promotion
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On this mega I shall take the opportunity to rant about one of my favorite things: the Webnovel UNJUST DEPTHS!
Do you love transgenders?
Do you love communism?
Do you love queer romance?
Do you love killing fascists in a giant fucking mech?
Would a plotline with all of these things happening in a underwater retro-futuristic gundam setting intrigue you?
Especially if its actually really well written with good characters, rich worldbuilding, and a marxist leninist transfem author?
All of the answers should be: YES I DO or else I WILL BAN YOU
Since you obviously love all of those things then Unjust Depths is perfect for YOU yes YOU! It is DESTINY
The Imbrian Ocean is at a time of severe instability. The monarch of the vast Empire that spans its unjust depths (:3) is sick and nearing death, every territory of the ocean now vying to carve their own Destiny out of the chaos. From the Volk fascists 
, Zionists 
(they literally will not die why are they still here oh my god), The 'Anarchists' (social chauvanists) 
in Bosporus, and the monarchs 
of each vast noble domain, each vies for power and prestige no matter who they crush underfoot, but it would be a pretty depressing story without a bright light in the dark.
On the edge of the Empire sits the glorious Union! The (Soviet) Union 
is a socialist federation of three states (and one anarchist mountain 
)that were formerly slave colonies under the Imbrian Empire until they broke away in a fierce liberation war. They have spent the last 20 years since then building themselves up. Whether they be Human 
, Shimmi 
(Catgirls who usually follow a religion closely related to modern Islam), and Kattaran 
(a hybrid humanoid species with characteristics of sea life ranging from sharks to cuttlefish)building socialism side by side.
First lead under the revolutionary leader Dashka Kansal, then the Idealist Ahwalia who lead the country to near ruin in pursuit of building a utopia on pillars of sand, then under the scientific socialist 
leadership of the Grand Marshall of the Union, Bhavani Jayanskar (I love Jayanskar so much shes basically as if Stalin, Lenin, and Zhukov were rolled into the same person but was a black lesbian badass who wore the uniform REALLY WELL)(she aint the main character at all tho shes only in very few scenes i just love her so much). Under Jayanskar, the Union has been growing their economy to both eliminate hunger and give everyone a home 
, but also growing their military capabilities for the inevitable return of the Empire. The Union is alone, but with the people by its side nothing, not even Destiny, can snuff out true freedoms light. 
As war wages between the Empire and Republic (basically underwater USA) once more over the lands between them, the facade begins to finally crack...
And a border conflict between the Empire and Union escalate, and the dreaded reconquest begins.
Amidst this turmoil, lives our main characters (yes there are multiple and all of them are lovely). Each of whom I personally love dearly, and are very well characterized. Many are soldiers of the Union, some are scientists, some are divers (mech pilots), some are lost strands finding new meaning after joining this band of Brigands
All are Communists 
All serve the Union 
All would gladly give their lives to defending socialism 
but even they would have little inkling of the adventure set in store for them as the lands beneath the waves erupt in fire, fury, and revolt
Can these transgender badasses kick fascist ass?
Can they kiss? (oh my god please kiss ISTG THERE IS SO MUCH SHIPPING AHHHH ITS GLORIOUS)
FIND OUT HERE: https://unjustdepths.com/
please do or else I will pout incessantly
just try it pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase i need to talk to someone about it after Cromalin went AFK
(I miss her, she was a real one)
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hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!
the list as it stands:
- GayTuckerCarlson (9/23 - 9/29)
- Luna* (9/30 - 10/6)
- Eco* (10/7 - 10/13)
- oscardejarjayes* (10/14 - 10/20)
β * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters
So I've been doing the IPL on my legs for months. Probably around 15 sessions.
It's thinned out my hair a lot. It's not growing back in a lot of places. I'd say like 30% of the hair remains in streaks.
I'm happy with the results, but have I hit the limit? I don't feel like I'm getting any more hair loss. Should I keep going?
the main takeaway of brokeback mountain is that eating beanis makes you gay
back to doing a bit of calisthenics. feels good
https://hexbear.net/post/3520611 upvote this thread nerds
If I look in the mirror and I have just looked like a girl all this time I am gonna be kind of mad at my family for not saying anything
Is the furry dating app called bark
If not, that's a terrible miss. Or maybe they have one for each, uh, species or whatever. Neigh, Hiss, Bleat, Chirp, fucking... the creepy fox scream sound
I read through There is No Antimemetics Division it was pulpy but it was fun. I didnt kmow the SCP connection, which was interesting to say the least - Im always surprised when the weird little folklore internet creepypasta horror stuff I was into in 2009 and the early 2010s makes a leap into different media. The ending was surprisingly tender and heartfelt, which was nice.
In an earlier period the author would've absolutely written for Amazing Stories or If, yknow those old pulp magazines like Lovecraft or PKD would've written in. It's nice they get to have the internet now, probably a wider readership.
Teaser two because I failed to get anything done today. It's another design by my sister, who she named... Luna. You can't make this up.
Being physically weak, this lady right here can blast people with dark magic and use staves. She was the figurehead of the revolutionaries that liberated their nation, and has been the figurehead of said nation since it's inception. After losing her magic after the revolution ended, she decided to take up a political role in the new government, and was promptly elected as its head. What if she were to get her magic back though, and her nation was facing invasion by its former oppressor?
Just finished The Weight of Living and it was good but I found myself more invested in gabi/soledad than gabi/trisha. Iβm not sure whyβ¦
I think maybe they just had more chemistry or something? Like there was this sense of yearning where they were both into each other whereas with gabi and trisha it felt more platonic until the end. I think gabi and soledad also seemed closer? Like they were constantly hanging out and we got to see gabi discover herself with soledad while with trisha gabi was more closed-off and guarded. Iβm also just a huge sucker for discovering-your-sexuality/gender-and-realizing-youβre-in-love-with-your-best-friend stories so that probably played a part 
It's genuinely pretty awesome to be in a trans space where I am not the eldest trans person by a country mile. (in trans-time terms but I also love our older trans conrades)
Every previous discord, youth group, whatever was the type of thing where people would bounce by year two of fulltime, every time. I don't begrudge people that because you can't force people to stick around of course, but it was kind of stupid to go ask a question or whatever and people would be like "I dunno, you've been doing it the longest", or they'd produce that fucking hilarious chart for feminising hormone therapy that says all effects stop at 36 months.
I really appreciate having a place that's not that, where people often know a lot more than I do. Thank you trans mega.
Wayhaven Book One major spoilers
Is it possible to avoid A) getting caught by Murphy and B) getting shot up with vampire blood to become a superbattery? There is a save data variable for the latter so I figured it must be possible but Idk how.
Also it's quite fascinating to me that my detective this run has more than double the "people skills" stat of my last one. I wonder what changes that and why?
The hoodie that I really wanted is sold out in my size. I was able to find a different one that I also like, but it's twice as expensive and the accent color is different so I have to modify some other parts of the outfit as well.
Really excited to see it come together though! Now I just have to wait for all the pieces to arrive.
dysphoria/body dysmorphia, fitness, hrt question
tfw ass not big enough
I wanna start lifting and doing hella squats/lunges/prone leg curls/hip add+abduction but I strained a hip flexor awhile ago and it's still bugging me
Also unsure if it's better to cut fat down to slim down my tummy then gain when I'm back on hrt or get back on e sooner than later and just see how stuff redistributes
Gonna see an old friend for the first time in 3 years soon! Itβs so cute, chat. We both had not transitioned last time we saw each other in person. We used to date, it didnβt work out, and we stayed friends since.
Will be good to see this human, and theyβre helping me recover from this surgery, and I will help them recover from top surgery next year.
watching
walking around the TwitchCon floor and I'm being over stimulated like crazy, goddamn I could not handle that shit for a longer periodmaid cafe mixed with an amsterdam coffee shop. maid brings an edible to you and casts a spell to make it tastier and more effective
sad, I guess? No, maybe its happy...
I just checked my email and it turns out that a former roommate and long time friend that I haven't seen since I left the city bought me some games. I'm not crying you're crying
bottom dysphoria
Damn, I'm noticing my bottom dysphoria is worse than it used to be. I used to not mind the bulge in my dress too much but now I need to hide it away if I want to be euphoric in my dress. I really need an orchi.
Had a friend call me she today. First person outside of my wife to do it. It was pretty cool. I've told my friends I'm NB, but haven't said my pronouns.
After he said it, he then realized and asked what my pronouns are.
Pretty neat to have supportive friends. Nobody has been weird about it, and things are going as they always have. Frankly, I wish they would make a bigger deal out of it and ask more questions lol.
But I'll take this. Treating it like it's totally normal is probably the healthiest reaction.
I had one friend who was a little too excited when I said I might be a trans woman. Later, when I told him I settled on NB, he was significantly less enthused. Don't know what to do with that, just gonna file it away somewhere
Edit: The fictitious equivalence in the word "totalitarianism" matches the libs here β obviously "fascism" would be preferable to insert here regardless of Orwell's stated intent
I think I already did some cubeposting a little bit ago so I'll try to not repeat myself. If I didn't or you missed it, I love solving the rubik's cube, lot of patterns, very step by step and methodical, feedback (both knowing how I can do better and the tactile feedback of the cube), stimming, yaknow all good things.
I'm trying to learn f2l. Right now I'm just solving with beginners method, very basic and boring. The basic idea is you solve the white edge pieces first, then insert the white corners where they belong, solving the first/white layer. To solve the second layer, which is just four edge pieces, you first position the edge piece on top, then move the corner it lines up with out and connect them, before inserting both pieces solved. After you do that for all the edges you've got the first two layers solved. This whole process is obviously slow, even having it down very well there's a lot of wasted moves and even worse, cube rotations.
f2l, short for first two layers, is solving the white corners and the second layer edges at the same time. I had put off learning it because there's a lot of unique cases. (where and in what orientation each piece is currently in, each case has its own algorithm to solve). There's a few ways to definite how many there exactly are, most cubers will say 41 f2l cases, but there are more, at least 36 others that can be good to know sometimes. Because I don't actually know f2l yet I can't give a great explanation of the cases, but I believe its something to do with how solved it is already. If all the other edges and corners are solved, there's less places you might need to yoink a piece from.
It looks like, watching this beginner/intuitive f2l video, that I won't be bruteforce learning the cases though, you start out with four insertion algorithms (I already know two of them), and there's a few steps to remember instead of learning every combination of cases. We'll give it a shot, obviously it is learnable I just need to try.
I love my wife!
Estrogen is unlocking new levels of loving my wife that were previously thought to be impossible
I did some hacky shit at the beginning of this project that didn't cause any problems until right now, the weekend before it's due
Argued with my mom and sister about not voting for Kamala this weekend. Apparently despite my vote having no impact on the outcome of the election thanks to the electoral college (which my mom stylizes as a "luxury" with accompanying judgment because I don't have to engage in any strategy), they still think it's important I vote for her to symbolize my support of women's rights. I explained that I see voting for her as support for genocide, which they disagree withβthey fully acknowledge the genocide is happening, mind you, they just think their vote for her is not expressing support for that.
The worst/best part is when my sister said part of the reason they're upset by it is that I don't have any have personal stake because I wouldn't be personally affected or targeted by Trump's policies...
So I had to remind them. I can't really blame my sister too much because I only talked about it with her once like two years ago and maybe she forgot, and I haven't begun any presentation changes or pronoun use IRL, but my mom should know better. She was literally crying half a year ago when I told her I wanted to be on estrogen (which is part of the reason I'm still not on it).
The only positive part was the satisfaction of weaponizing identity politics against my liberal family members. Sorry girls but trans gal beats out cis women in the woke hierarchy every time!!!
My lungs are not happy with me, that's okay, I'll still keep smoking that garbage
I wonder what yall would be like as roommates
Am I gonna be secretly smoldering because you never do the dishes or your day for the cat litter boxes, am I gonna be secretly turning off the furnace so I don't get overheated (WHO TURNS THE HEAT ON IN A HEATWAVE, ITS 40Β° OUT), am I gonna get weirded out by you insisting that we all need to eat together every night, am I gonna have to ask you to please keep the fucking noises down I have to work a night shift please don't be so loud for once
Or, maybe, you would all be cool and it would be ME who was the problem π±
https://hexbear.net/comment/5412664
my trans anime recommendations
I touched on this in another thread but wanted to share here.
CW: controversial? Musings on my own personal experience of being trans by happenstance
Unlike most trans people I've met, I am of the belief that I am here now, living life as a stealth trans woman, as a direct result of my environment, not because of some internal gender that was always there. I am convinced that if I wasn't relentlessly bullied, harassed, degraded, beaten, and rejected by my peers as a child (due mostly to racism and homophobia) I would not have even thought to transition. I feel as if I consciously decided to become a woman at my lowest point, 4 years ago, simply as a way to kill the broken, unloved and unlovable husk of a person with no childhood, and no hope for the future and become someone, anyone, else. I dipped my toes in the water of experimenting with my presentation, and I was surprised by how easily I was able to pass, which only fueled my desire to transition solely as a way to save my life, which simply could not have continued as the broken "man" I was. I was on the brink but I saw a way out.
I started doing everything in my power to dress fasionably and femininely, went crazy hard on voice training, researched all I could on DIY hrt and how to source it, in an effort to pass at all costs. It was working shockingly well, and in a few months, long before I had even self identified as a women, I was passing as a women, very consistently, and for the first time in my life, I was able to be okay. I was able to feel confident in myself, express myself, not hate everything about me, because I wasn't me anymore, I wasnt that broken THING I left behind, I could start over, and it was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. Living this way, passing as a woman while still secretly identifying as a man in my own head, slowly but surely over the course of a year, my internal gender literally changed into that of a woman, and one day, I actually, truly belived it with every fiber of my being, long after the world arround me did. It's funny looking back, and a bit embarrassing, but after all that, 4 years later I am more sure that I am a woman than literally anything else about me, despite my recollection of events, and am positive that transitioning not only saved my life, but finally allowed me to enjoy it. However, I am almost positive that had my childhood been full of love, acceptance, and happiness, I would have never even considered transitioning. It very well could be the case that I am simply rationalizing away my "inherent transness" but that's just my current take on it. Anayws, just felt like I wanted to get that off my chest and maybe hear the thoughts of other trans people on that whole ordeal...
things that are based: some random person on here months ago who saw that my pronouns are hy/hym and changed their comment to call me a based kyng instead of a king. they edited it back pretty quickly but i saw that comrade and don't worry i thought it was funny i love you
things that are less based: i went to an irl event recently that was very vocally pro-lgbt and had a bunch of pronouns pins. there were a million she/they and he/they, but not a single she/him or he/her, which i think are the only pronouns i'd ever be brave enough to use irl. many such cases smh π
Long ass "dump the stuff that's weighing on my brain out into writing" post
mental health stuff, alcohol cessation, social withdrawal/APD? Not sure what to tag for that last one
.
Have been really anxious and having a lot of trouble with sleep lately and irritability lately and feeling burned out and having a short fuse, but I've been trying to practice shit I've learned from therapy before and separate impulsive thoughts and negative automatic thinking patterns from my sense of self (like, not "ugh I'm such an irritable miserable bitch" but "I have a lot of difficult shit to deal with and it's understandable that someone in my position would be frustrated and have a short fuse sometimes and that isn't some inherent flaw in my character," etc)
Trying to be appreciative of little things that go well or I enjoy or make me notice improvement in myself
-Have stayed dry for more than a month for the first time this year. Feel like I've turned a corner mentally where I just associate alcohol with how awful I felt after my last binge and feel repulsed by booze now because of that association instead of still craving it sometimes after previous attempts staying sober after getting through withdrawals. Was offered some red wine at a dinner and turned it down. I probably would have drank it in the past rationalizing it as "just one glass in a social setting" and "not a big deal," then basically doing the Barney Gumble "it begins" thing and relapsing afterwards with vodka, and I didn't and wasn't really even tempted, so go me.
-Have been better about skincare. Found a moisturizer that agrees with my sensitive gay baby skin and am pretty happy about that. Instead of stinging my face, it doesn't bother me going on, then like gradually turns into the skin equivalent feeling of the nice glow feeling your mouth gets from a pleasantly spicy food? If that makes sense?
-Got some nice music recs I'm looking forward to checking out and have revisited some albums I really like that I haven't listened to in years and had a good time remembering
-Have been thinking about how to spend the money I've saved quitting drinking and am considering getting a mid gaming PC (the newest vidya I've played is X360 stuff lol) and/or music gear (either a lunchbox low watt tube guitar amp or a modeling rig) that's kind of exciting to me
-Mentally am trying to work through some of my hermit tendencies and whether I have avoidant personality disorder and how to work through that. Learned that a once very close friend that I fell out of touch with during covid that I learned is going through some really rough shit and is depressed and I'm struggling with how to approach reaching out to. The longer I've been out of contact with someone, the harder it is for me to think of how to try reconnecting and I feel extremely guilty and sad for how we lost contact. I still deeply care for this friend and felt like they were like the sibling I never had, we just intuitively understood each other in a way I've never had with anyone and were the first friend I made after coming out who only ever knew me as me not (dead name.) I want to rekindle our friendship but I feel so guilty for drifting away from them in the first place that thinking about how to make contact again after years feels so overwhelming and I feel like however that goes I'd probably have an ugly crying type meltdown.
Thanks for reading my bullshit if you made it this far lol, sorry for the wall of text and diarypost
I love all my transfem friends and it breaks my heart that every single one of them have a plethora of intense trauma and mental illnesses no matter what race, socioeconomic upbringing/current, career path, social life, etc.
On one hand it's very nice to have people that can relate and accept my level of fucked up but at the same time I'm starting to understand the elder trans women who've said they try to avoid trans/queer spaces/people because of how heavy it can be
" thing, so now coworkers have seen me in full queer mode.
