dreams, drugs, and suicide mention
Had an awful vivid nightmare last night. I was back in college and staying late on campus for some lab thing when news broke that the US and China declared war on each other and that nuclear strikes were on their way. I sprinted home and was trying to get my car to start so I could go find my sister but it wouldn’t start. I then just kind of wandered out into the streets and found this old man standing by himself. We had a brief conversation and I gave him a hug then the nukes fell. It all felt so real and I like accepted my mortality and that this was the end
Not this exact dream but this scenario of nuclear war is a reoccurring nightmare for me and it all ways feels so vivid and real. I have a couple other really bad vivid reoccurring ones like one where I kill myself and another where I’m attacked and eaten by roaches.
I’ve heard people say that weed gets rid of dreams but I smoke as often as I have money to do so and I still get awful vivid dreams
lol I found a typo on wikipedia
Charles II (29 May 1630 – 6 February 1685)[c] was King of Scotland from 1649 until 1651 and King of England, Scotland, and Ireland from the 1660 Restoration of the monarchy until his death in 1995.
I think this is the first time I ever found a blatant typo on wikipedia
big bug bite on Bat's butt 
My lungs are not happy with me, that's okay, I'll still keep smoking that garbage
“The old gender is dying, and the new gender struggles to be born: now is the time of boymodding”
All of the cards in Wingspan have amazing art but I think this one is my favorite
Every therapist I've ever had has been dogshit
When I told my last therapist about my anxiety she was like "oh why don't you try aroma therapy to calm you down?" MOTHERFUCKER I need assistance leaving my own apartment to go grocery shopping I get so anxious, aroma therapy isn't going to do jack shit
And yeah basically everyone I've ever had has been really disinterested. My last one even ended a session 15 mins early seemingly cause she got bored
My physiologist is okay cause she just gives me meds and we talk like once a month, she still misgenders me and shit so still trash but better than any therapist
Mental health services are a joke in the US
everyone already could do art, just pick a up a pen and draw. art is one of the cheapest and most accessible hobbies out there, literally all you need is paper and a pencil
things feel straight when they are gay and gay when they are straight and it all sucks shit and feels like garbage
