What should I do If I don't enjoy really my life and I feel anxious about any change in my day and I don't have any bright future or anything to do?
What should I do if I don't have anything to enjoy and I don't have a bright future to work for/ wait it?
As an extra note, I started to hate dealing with humans and I don't have any friends.
Been in that state a lot. That's classic depression. Evo-psych has some stupid ideas but their read on depression is solid. That urge to withdraw from society is a human urge. The urge is designed to lead to either, you leaving your band of primates to seek another, or your fellow group members coming and finding you to show how much you matter to them. Modern life doesn't let that happen though. So many of our relationships are digital or just shallow so no one can tell you're leaving, and changing your group in a real way is hard. If you want to feel betterment you have to use your rational brain to seek out what your body is instinctively reaching for. Pick something that you have always cared about, and go to a real life event centered on that thing. This can be almost anything, as long as there are real people, really sharing a physical space. Talk to the people about that thing. Don't do it just to tick it off the list, you have to pay attention to what they are saying because you need to be able to articulate their ideas and then respond to them.
And to continue your real life event thing, even just going outside and watching something happen can help get the ball rolling. It won’t be quite the same, like you said, but it won’t at all be a waste of time. Even going for a regular walk in a somewhat busy area can help, especially if you get to say high to a dog or something(which plays into your interaction thing).
There's a meme in Norway for this where professionals always ask "did you try hiking?"
Seriously though did you try hiking? There are no problems in the back country. Or people.
Ain’t a bad idea.
Round about 10 years ago I lived alone in a little cabin in the woods. I didn’t have much in the way of money, didn’t need much of it either. Wood stove, books from the library for entertainment.
Shit, I was way calmer and happier when I lived in the woods.
I've read through all the replys here, so I'm not gonna suggest something that's already been suggested. You've already given your opinion on therapy, and on changes/new things.
Let me start by telling you this. You say you don't have a bright future to wait for. My friend, none of us have. Your future is what you make it to be. You set your own course and build your bright future yourself, no one else is gonna do it for you. That's life, and that's what makes it beautiful.
If therapy doesn't work for you, that's fine. I personally don't believe in medication for these kinds of issues, but that's my opinion. Try meditating. Seriously, it does wonders. Start with a few minutes a day and gradually increase, doesn't have to be hard. It's gonna make you into the kind of person who takes a step back and thinks about life.
I do agree with others here that it sounds like you need to find your purpose. Purpose isn't necessarily something you actively look for, sometimes it's just something that pops into your head. For example when meditating or doing other things that don't require any active thinking.
Also, one more thing: If you don't like doing new things, try removing something. Take a digital detox, as I like to call it. I do it from time to time, and I always enjoy it and I come back with renewed energy and motivation for life. Just a few days or a week where you don't open any social media, digital entertainment (music, streaming, web surfing etc.) or anything else not strictly necessary. You're gonna be bored first, I'll tell you that. But then you're gonna find out how nice it actually is. You're gonna start craving for something to do, and if the rule of digital detox is set in your mind, you're gonna start finding new things to fill your time with. Like taking a walk or reading a book. Though it does require determination.
What I like to do when I'm in a digital detox period, is to remove entertainment focused apps from my home screen on my phone, and then put my screen in black & white (called reading mode on some phones) to make it "boring". That's definitely gonna help you.
Life is short, please make something out of it, for your own sake.
This question is way above Lemmy's pay grade. I hope your situation gets better. People are right in saying that if self-help fails then it's time to give professional help another chance if that's accessible for you.
I do listen to a lot of podcasts and have recently heard something relevant from an expert in the field:
The Happiness Lab with Dr. Laurie Santos: How to Find Your Purpose
Episode webpage: https://omny.fm/shows/the-happiness-lab-with-dr-laurie-santos/how-to-find-your-purpose
Your post history also indicates that you're routinely steeped in the worst doom news that social media serves up. It seems like it would be worth taking a break from consuming this material and find alternative ways to spend your time.
See a professional, seriously, because this sounds like textbook early depression.
Sadly, I saw 3 different professionals, it does not work.
I was expecting that they won't have a magic phrase to say and solve my issues before I go to them and I partially went due to the advice of the people around me.
After going and finding out myself, I can confirm that I was right.
Therapy takes work, my friend. Professionals can't help you unless you want help and are willing to work toward change. If you're expecting some external factor to "fix it for you," you're going to be disappointed
Whether it's through professionals IRL or strangers on the Internet, it'll require effort on your part. You're going to have to want to be an active participant and willing to work on yourself. It will be a process, not a single event.
You're right, there is no magic 'press button, receive well-adjusted and chemically balanced human being' button, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't keep trying. Therapy is a process, especially with medication, psychoactive medication is notoriously fucky with a long adaptation phase and weird side effects, some of which stick around and some of which don't after a few weeks. A couple weeks of therapy and medication isn't going to cure anything, give them the time they need to work toward your goal, because the alternative is a deep, dark hole you don't want to go down. Take it from someone who's been there, and who is only here now, 30 years later, because someone convinced me to stick with the process.
I was expecting that they won't have a magic phrase to say and solve my issues
That is a logical expectation because that's not what they do.
After going and finding out myself, I can confirm that I was right.
Ahh, so, you were expecting them to TRY to fix you with a magic phrase and when the magic phrase never came, you assumed that they had failed.
You got it all backwards. Those people don't fix you. They teach you, they point you in the right direction, they tell you the things your friends won't, they ask the questions you've been avoiding.
YOU fix YOU.
If the athlete doesn't show up for the competition, they can't blame the loss on bad coaching.
Therapy is a vehicle, and you are the driver. You're only going to move forward if you drive.
That being said, finding a therapist you work well with is hard, and, in my experience, takes quite a few tries before finding someone with whom you are comfortable.
My suggestion is to find someone who specializes in cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), and literally read this post to them. I've had luck using Alma to find a therapist (in the US).
I genuinely hope you are able to work through this - I've been there, as have many people. You can do this, and you're not alone
Therapy
As others have said, find a professional. It can take alot of tries before you find the right person, but it's extremely helpful when you find the right person.
As someone with ADHD I also get anxiety with changes in my day-to-day events. My coping mechanism for a while has been coming up with practical contingency plans. That makes it so I at least have an idea of what to do and at what point there is nothing left to do. It's helped me get through many situations.
As for your future and social problems, those likely need some personal analysis and personal change (professionals are meant to help with this). A lack of future is often not an actual lack, it's usually a personal failure at seeing other potentials, seeing a new path to follow. It's sometimes called learned helplessness and can be hard to deal with alone. Becoming antisocial (not wanting any human interaction) is also usually a difficult thing and is usually caused by a personal neuroticism. But we need purpose as humans, and we also need comradery quite often.
Thinking of yourself as a collection of habits can be helpful for this. You should be asking yourself what exactly makes you upset about about other people, and try to relate it to something about yourself.
You can't change other people, but you can change how you react to other people. Quite often that requires a shift of perspective that acknowledges that you are a biased viewer enterpretting a limited view. Instead of "people talking about themselves are annoying" for example, "I am bothered by people when they talk about themselves" can be more useful. That way, you are talking about the emotional response you have to others rather than the perceived traits of others - your lense is now focusing on you instead of on others.
That's all I've got. The path to being content is difficult, and I wish you luck.
Did you try jerking off?
Goddamn I wish I could. People describe it as pleasurable and then relaxing. But I've never been able to do it. It's like either the nerve endings aren't hooked up right or there is some sort of brain defect, but I lack the ability for pleasure there, myself.
Sorry, I'm not the OP.
Antidepressants
Antidepressants just make you feel nothing. In many cases it's worse than not being on them.
This is not true for plenty of people. Antidepressants saved my life, and I still feel things.
You need different antidepressants. I'm on prozac, and it only makes me feel better.
I think that is called the human condition.
Change your name and/or pronouns. Half joking, a lot of us live overcast lives as a result of feeling trapped in someone else's life. If you don't have friends then what's there to lose?
If possible, I recommend therapy. Been relying on it for decades and eventually learned to love myself. Everything good in my life now is because therapy helped me become a better person.
Schedule everything then? If you’re already nothing then suffering through some anxiety to plan something new isn’t much worse than literally nothing right? So plan shit out, and stick to said schedule. Find a hobby where you can meet people you don’t hate? Music, games, fostering kittens, whatever idk.
You clearly need a community. There are millions of them, plenty accepting. Just ideally find a positive one before you end up in a negative one.
Learn to love yourself. And look for help. You don't know what the future will be, things can change drastically sometimes in just a few weeks.
Get a dog. Always happy to see you when you get home, will pester you relentlessly into moderate excercise, #1 wingman for meeting friends or significant others.
I owned a dog for brief amount of time.
Trust me, no.
The dog deserve a better human who can stay active with him.
Not ironic here: I was at a very low point, and what I did was ditch everything, brought some gear to sleep outside, and decided to see how long I could stay outside with just my fishing gear.
To be fair, I brought freeze-dried food for a couple days, but after about a week I felt better enough to head back to society.
What I did that week was primarily fish for dinner and gather firewood for the evening. Did wonders for my psyke.
Life is like a garden. If you want to sit around and curse at the thistles and weeds, you can, but they will continue to grow as you fixate on them. If you see beauty and follow it, then cultivate it, you will be in a beautiful garden. It’s not instantaneous, and it takes work. The work starts in your mind. Negative thoughts will blind you to good opportunities. If you don’t know where you’re going, any place will get you there. Maybe a good place to start is finding the tolerable humans, and see where it takes you.
This is a discussion to have with professionals in a professional setting. No one here is responsibly equipped to answer this in a chat forum. This obviously includes me.
That being said, I do not think about the future - live your life second-by-second.
Despite what people say, life is not meant to be enjoyed. We live in a time of lawlessness and over-abundance, so people often equate life with enjoying things. At your core, you are a biological package of electrical circuits and tools. When you do something your body deems beneficial, you enjoy it (as in signals reward your brain).
If you want to enjoy, then a general tip is to return to the fundamentals. Eat healthy food, exercise, explore, learn, and talk to people in real life. If this doesn't work, then you need to speak with a professional (probably a therapist) to find what does.
Hating humans is not viable, you simply need to stop that. This is not to say let yourself be abused and runover, but you need to form bonds with people - this is our inescapable nature.
Psychedelics
shit sucks
no fucking doubt about it
antianxiety medicine helps but
really you need to find you
nothing else matters.
once you can understand your self, telling others your limits and expectations is just the flow of life that you're expecting
I don’t know what to tell you. One of the major reasons I decided not to have children is because the future looks so bleak.
You’ve already given your opinion on therapy. All I can suggest is that you keep trying. I know that’s exhausting, but please hear me out. Finding the right therapist is essential, and can take several attempts. The same goes for the type and dosage of medication. Depression isn’t like other forms of disease. What works for one person may not work for someone else.
What I’ve learned from the various psychiatrists and psychologists I’ve seen is that there’s still a LOT we don’t understand about how the brain works. I don’t think less of them for trying anyway. They’re (mostly) good people trying to do their best.
Well, that turned out to be a lot for a reply that started with “I don’t know what to tell you.” Oh well. I’ll skip the platitudes and simply wish you well.
Either get used to change in the hopes it will become better, or get used to being miserable in my life you have now. By the way, you’re gonna be uncomfortable in One Direction or the other, so I suggest you choose the better one.
If you hate your life now, but are also terrified to change, you’re gonna have to decide which one is worth, and during that discomfort: things staying the same, the way you hate it, or enduring the terror of the unknown, your life, possibly improving.
I don't think you fully got me here, so let me explain it better.
I feel anxious if I have appointment with a doctor for normal test or diagnosis, I feel anxious about having any new thing introduced to my uneventful days, no matter it's significance.
This happens to a LOT of us with ADHD.
The best treatment for anxiety is to just confront it, feel anxious, and then realize on the other side it was actually fine. Won't make it go away immediately, but it'll decrease over time. Anxiety is a normal human emotion, it just gets a little to intense for some people sometimes
OK, I think I better understand where you’re coming from, but my advice is pretty much the same.
Life is changed. Constant, unrelenting change. How will you get through that and how happy you are throughout your life often depends directly on how well you can handle change in your life.
I suggest, at the very least, trying to get some practice. Resisting change will only ever make you miserable.
You need something with regular progression to look forward to. Honestly? Start working out, and start SMALL. I'm talking just even walking. Real physical and mentally felt change happens early with no equipment even needed. There is no feeling quite like "this... actually got easier." And the progression is infinite. Literally all I've been doing lately is two curl exercises before bed and the difference is astounding, not only in mood but energy. I feel more energy during the day just by making a minimal attempt at night.
Such thoughts can be very overwhelming, ever present, consuming. Imagine swimming against a strong current. Sometimes it's important to just take a break. Get out of the stream and watch it rush by. Of course you can't stay out forever, there are factors beyond your reach, it pulls you back in. But the best bet to beat the pull of this vortex is to try and create as many of these breaks as possible. Small as they may be. While you rest, consider the advice in this thread. It's benevolent, you know? Consider a dialectic position. For every bad thing that pulls you down, think about a good thing that lifts you up too. Literature can be powerfull too, in that you might discover descriptions, states and emotions in which you find yourself in a way you never could phrase it yourself. It's all about a balance of "being seen", receiving empathy, regaining agency and changing perception.
Straight to jail
You can try my method: therapy, medication, and counting the days until I die from heart disease.
you could start learning c++and contribute to some open sourced games out there
Welcome to my world, friend. It's not as if I don't have friends because I couldn't put on the societal mask and make them; I just simply hate humans that much. Only people I can stand being around are philosophers. People who take a step back and think about the world from a unburdened point of view, and people who talk about what the solutions might one day be.
Only thing that ended up saving me is my wife and children. I would have clocked out long ago. Find someone that hates humanity with you, and cherish them. Or find someone who loves humanity to balance you.