i think i understand what you are feeling. as some have said, this is not the best thought process that you can have regarding this but its not a shameful one in my opinion, especially because you recognize its petty and you wanted to put yourself out there about it. being someone that had a "#1", them passing away violently and suddenly, then embracing a new "#1" that i am also a "#1" for, i can say that sometimes i wish the person i am so called "#1" for had someone else that could fill those shoes sometimes. it sounds like this is a trauma bond that those two share and while they can beautiful, sometimes its very hard to share that space with someone and being the only one that can
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wow, i haven't seen obama smile like that in a while. i'm glad he has someone in his life that can bring that much joy for him.
on my med bottle it says to take either or but to do it that way each time. i prefer to take them on an empty stomach. i think if you want to switch from empty stomach to w/food you would be ok. there have been days where i have taken w/ and w/o food and worst i felt was a bit o nausea which idek if it was from that but ymmv
Once I started presenting femm around my partners family, I started noticing his father stealing creepy glances at me and I was at once creeped out but also felt weirdly affirmed. Its hard to navigate it exactly and even if you know to expect it, you never know how situations like this will present.
Hey all, this is my first post so hello and thank you all! Have been on HRT (estradiol, spiro, progest.) for about 7 months and the entire experience has been in a simple term, life-saving. I wasn't actively sui but I was extremely depressed and probably heading that way. Anyway, on to vulnerability. I noticed a pretty immediate shift in my mood upon starting HRT. A combination of my medication and not feeling so depressed has added much more definition to my emotional life and it has pros and cons. One key thing I noticed was how much more vulnerable I am willing to be in my relationships. I noticed it yesterday when I got into an argument with my partner. I remembered earlier that week how I had related something to them when I was feeling very vulnerable but trusting. The contrast of trust in the argument vs when I was feeling open with him was very jarring and I felt very gross for having let him in at that capacity earlier. I'm not sure if its necessarily a problem but its something that I need to keep in mind as I continue.
