mental health stuff cw: suicide thoughts and stuff
for some reason today. since I been awake. it like a flip switch in me or something because instead of being so desiring death a lot like I normally am and wishing for the end. for some reason today, I'm just like, upset about not wanting to die and upset about everything, and I mean tons of things??? Despite everything be fine and being fine yesterday. Also like everything fine, but there just a part of me that just like, going wild, acting as if death is around the corner and I don't know what's going on? and then actually being worried of what happens after death for some reason? despite again, like, normally, I don't care! and it doesn't bother me. So why is it bothering me now?
I don't know why im feeling like this, and that the confusing part since I don't know where this is stemming from.
Marx is really starting to kill me with his large paragraphs in volume 3.
I like to bounce between both. For some reason some days I can't do physical books but digital, but then other days I can't do digital and need physical.
It's really nice seeing all of orion belt, it just beautiful seeing the night sky and seeing some of the constellations.
I recognize this state of affairs, and yet there’s no other entity to step in.
You did not say country, but entity. Forgive me if I didn't catch that you meant country in that context. And I don't think that a valid question since Palestine is still around and so are Palestinians. And resistance groups like Hamas are going to keep fighting.
I just wanted to add but Iran has helped Palestine a lot, just for some examples see https://hexbear.net/comment/4361195
it's weird to say no other entity has stepped in when Iran, Ansarallah, Hezbollah have been stepping in various ways.
and to add, Iran is planning on retaliating against Israel, and Israel fate is pretty much sealed, being more closer to defeat. Considering their economy is wrecked, and they're being hurt in many different directions. Israel has no future.
I just want to add onto your comment this graph which is also very relevant. from https://lemmygrad.ml/post/5477115
From the Resistance News Network telegram https://t.me/PalestineResist/56729
Commander-in-chief of the Islamic Revolutionary Guard Corps, Major General Hossein Salami:
The zionist entity is besieged by Iraq, Yemen, and Lebanon. The nightmare of our response keeps the enemy on alert day and night, and we have begun to see signs of its end.
The zionist enemy will taste the flavor of Iranian revenge and will realize that it cannot toy with our red lines.
"Israel" cannot strike and run away easily; rather, it will receive a decisive response.
Certainly, they will receive a response. How and when? This time, the response will be different, and everyone will realize that.
Presstv and Al Mayadeen also cover this and some highlights from Al Mayadeen below
General Salami emphasized that the Israeli regime is experiencing confusion and internal unrest, with hundreds of thousands of protesters taking to the streets in the occupied territories. According to him, the Israeli occupation is trapped in a crisis with no escape.
He concluded his remarks with a stern warning to the Israeli occupation, saying: "The Israeli regime is now confined within the occupied lands, and its leaders are losing their mental stability, awaiting death at any moment. Rest assured, the response will come. When and how? This time, it will be different, and everyone will know that Israel can no longer strike and escape unscathed."
Former IRGC commander Mohsen Rezaei said in an interview with CNN released on in late August that his country's retaliation to the Israeli assassination of Hamas' politburo chief Ismail Haniyeh in Tehran will be well measured so that Prime Minister Benjamin can not "save himself" from the crises he's in.
In the parts of Capital where Marx refers to dead labor, he actually means it literally and means skeletons doing a lot of labor in society
I'll just go revolutionary optimize my suicide thoughts away then. I'll just go revolutionary optimize my grief away from my mom dying last year. I'll just go revolutionary optimize my dad drinking himself to death.
It is cultivated by the acknowledgement that only through participation in the struggle to liberate the people can the lives of the people be transformed.
Yea I don't have the means to participate right now! To cultivate such a thing! I hate this fixation on revolutionary optimism because it's ignores what getting in the way of people in participating and feels more like emotional policing or something. But it ignores why is someone a doomer? Are they depressed? Are they dealing with shit? How can those bridges be crossed? Why aren't they taking action? What are the road blocks getting in the way. And the reason I compare it to self help is because of how others like you ignore what I just said!
Besides like, someone can be doomer and still take action. Like there were times when I was very suicidal where I managed to help some people. It's as if emotions don't have to dictate action.
I really dislike the focus on doomerism, mainly just in the sense that like. It just reminds me sort of like. Those self help books that are like "Think positive and manifest your wishes!" that kind of stuff. I don't think doomerism is really the problem. If anything it's just lack of pathways to meaningful action.
In another way it also just feels dismissive on things people are dealing with. It's a good thing movements aren't built off just based on how people are feeling, but on actual action being done. But maybe I shouldn't speak considering I struggle with things like suicide thoughts a lot on a daily basis.
I also hate how JT talked about despair and equated it to liberalism when despair is a complex emotion that stems from a variety of things like trauma. Also I hate that he brought up "continue to mope and whine and wallow in self pity". I hate that phrase so much.
I think Iran will, when they're ready to, I wouldn't doubt Iran. Here a recent article concerning this to.
Israel shouldn’t doubt Iran’s resolve to retaliate: Top military official https://www.presstv.ir/Detail/2024/09/05/732691/Iran-military-official-warning-Israel-response-Hamas-leader-assassination
and some highlights from it
A ranking Iranian military official says the Israeli regime should not doubt the Islamic Republic’s resolve to retaliate over the regime’s assassination of senior Palestinian resistance leader, Ismail Haniyeh, which took place in Tehran in late July.
The Iranian Armed Forces’ Deputy Chief of Staff for Coordination, Brigadier General Ali Abdollahi made the remarks during a ceremony in the northwestern Iranian city of Koumeleh on Wednesday.
“The Zionist regime should not dream that Iran would not respond to this atrocity...because the Islamic Republic has [already] proven its will to deploy all its capacities towards responding to enemies’ violation of its soil and waters,” he said.
The official quoted remarks made by Leader of the Islamic Revolution Ayatollah Seyyed Ali Khamenei following the assassination, in which the Leader pledged that the Islamic Republic would deliver a “harsh response” to the atrocity.
“The time of the response, however, will be determined by the Leader and the country’s senior commanders,” Abdollahi noted.
The focus on 'nothing ever happens' is kind of getting annoying on this news mega. Especially since it feels very trivializing as if this all is some sort of entertainment.
They considered South Korea a part of the Global South, but considered them military colonies of the United States or heavily U.S militarized. Along with the Philippines.
The Global North is an integrated military, political, and economic bloc composed of 49 countries. These include the US, the UK, Canada, Australia, New Zealand, Israel, Japan, and secondary Western and Eastern European countries. In the military arena, Turkey (as a NATO member), the Republic of Korea and the Philippines (de facto militarised colonies of the US) are included in our definition of the ‘US-led Military Bloc’, even though they are part of the Global South.
Here is some more of their other reasons as well, listed under global south in part three in that study.
The peoples of these two nations (Figure 30) largely align with the Global South. Both countries have had pro-US leaders, as well as independent-leaning leaders. However, these countries are – militarily – entirely controlled by the US.
Historically, both nations have been subordinated to the US through military conquest. After WWII, when the US had militarily occupied the Korean peninsula, and, later, at the end of the Korean War, the Republic of Korea retained a large US military presence. Its economic reconstruction was almost entirely funded and directed by the US. Following the Spanish-American War, the Philippines was a US colony for nearly five decades (1898–1946).
This vassalage is evident today: after the elections of Yoon Suk-yeol in the Republic of Korea and Ferdinand Marcos Jr. in the Philippines in 2022, both have served as frontline positions in containing China. In February 2023, the Philippines invited the US to expand its military presence in the country by adding four more bases to the existing five US-operated bases – 30 years after Philippine lawmakers ruled to end permanently the US military presence in the country. The Republic of Korea has also increased the military expansion of the US, participating alongside Japan ‘to inaugurate a new era of trilateral partnership’ with the US. In addition, the General Security of Military Information Agreement between Japan and the Republic of Korea, facilitated by their closer alignment with the US, expands intelligence sharing between the two countries to include ‘threats from China and Russia’. Their military expenditures should be attributed to the US-Led Military Bloc.
What you said reminds me of this image from Tricontinental
I'm surprised there an emote for that, but yea! I think what's neat is the creativity that went into some of those.
I don't think it's bad. I have scores turned off because internet points just mess with me no matter what, and I kind of just dislike the entire concept at this point.
Yea, my mom was somewhat of a hoarder, and there were just things everywhere. And if it wasn't that, it was just beer bottles all over the place. Along with other things like broken windows and doors.
