Just back from dinner with the guy who organises the local Meetup dining group.
I'd dropped into the conversation when he invited me to a cafe that I wasn't looking for a relationship right now, just to lay it on the table, then after some messaging that was pushing the boundaries and some blatantly flirtatious behaviour in front of others I had to have a stern talk of the You're Making Me Uncomfortable Back Off variety.
So he walked me home, came in briefly to meet the cats and then I drove him home making it plain that I was just going to drop him home and run.
So what does he do? Ask me to stay the night!
Firstly NO, secondly I've never left the cats alone overnight and I'm not going to start now, thirdly I Told You I'm Not Interested Several Times Jesus Christ. 🤦🏻♀️ I think he's more of a clueless scungie type - I know the breed from Uni God knows - but seriously, which part of I Am Not Interested does this guy not understand?Long day... cranky... not a drop of moisture all day, but I just managed to miss the rain and got to come home to silky kitty and a bit of silliness (=much-needed energy expenditure) with the feather toy. Thank god I have food in the fridge... rest my tired soul with the sound of rain and a nourishing meal. I'm spent.
Tonight it's singing practice. I cancelled my plans so I could have the evening to myself to get my voice back to a usable state.
I miss performing so much. I just love the vulnerability that you feel when you're giving a part of yourself to strangers for a short while. Putting yourself out there.
Music had been such an important part of my life. Every step of the way music has kept me going when I felt I didn't want to. I could always rely on making music for catharsis.
And I think that's what makes it such an important part of my life. I feel like everything is bottled up unless I'm playing regularly.
/end over sharing rant
Fed the kitty this morning and we went back to bed, cuddling sweetly… she stretched her arm, dropped it and punctured a single secretly sharp claw into my eyelid like a fishhook.
After a delay of refusing to get up it was washed with antibacterial hand soap and dabbed with Betadine so fingers crossed. I have a spare box of antibiotics ready to go.
But yeah, that was literally half a centimetre from my actual eye.
Well that's a first. Found a stick insect on my subwoofer. I don't think I've actually seen one before in the wild:
It has been put back outside on a tree. But glad to see there's another real junglist saying wicked.
This most definitely calls for a rave choon:
Considering it was on the subby... Suicide bassline!
Speaking to my therapist last night. We were talking about my anxious mind craving distractions and the amount of screen time I'm racking up on my phone. He was talking about just sitting, no noise or anything and just taking in whats going on around us. I've never been so proud of myself cause I stopped short of shouting "RAWDOGING! Gen Z call it rawdogging when you just sit on a flight and do nothing!"
Fuck i'm weird ey.
Whoop de doo... I knew I had it going well for a while, but just as I'm looking at having to drop my overall hours because I am simply not coping with doing it all and trying to finish degree, I get an email from the landlord about upping the rent to 550/week (15% increase).
Pour one out for me, this has just ruined my weekend. Landlords do be collecting more and more for adding zero value...
She's said she's open to negotiation but I really suck at working out a middle ground. Too many emotions. I'll have to sleep on it. Why did she have to send this on a Friday night.
Was running a bit late this morning. Missed the train by 45 seconds. And had to wait 25 min for the next one. wtf. It’s not the weekend
Sometimes when I hoover a pill down my throat I wonder if I accidentally swallowed a bit of foil with it.
Yeah I’ll order the motion activated light and see what I can do. Then if that doesn’t work out things are about to get stinky. I also have some creative plans for bike locks.
Ultimately though I’d love to just move somewhere less eventful and have a proper little garden, catio, maybe a shed to tinker. Maybe a fire pit. In my dreams. Maybe if I win the lottery
That's a good look radar blob happening down near the heads, wowee!
Feeling awfully impatient at work today. There’s someone in the office that just manages to bring the whole place down and loads of us are on edge. At least there’s a yum lunch to look forward to, and then end of the day to look forward to after that!
sewing machine frame has been wire brushed and then wiped down with derust/phosphoric acid. Next step is wiping it down with a damp rag then painting. 👍
Ordered pizza that includes prawns. They put calamari on too, I don’t mind but hello allergy nightmare. Don’t do that!
Just back from a beach walk/errand run.
Wimdy.First day of the free food market in its new location. I don't think Eastland security were impressed by the unruly mob, hopefully they get crowd control sorted out and don't get kicked out. The old location was closer to home, but being under cover is a massive advantage.
My main wish for today was tomatoes, and I got three of those so I'm happy. Also lots of bananas, I'm not sure what I'm going to do with all of those.
These pj pants I bought today are so much thinner and maybe more breathable thanks it then being cotton.
I’m definitely going to have to buy a few more of them either this weekend or next week.
School starts next week and I cannot wait. This holiday has actually been relatively crap, although I have made a new friend and been way more creative so it isn't all bad at all.
I just feel aimless and purposeless, and it's been weighing on me terribly.
I just remembered there was someone who used to be on the other DT a couple of years ago who lived with their son and was pretty active. Forgot their name but I wonder if they're doing okay.
