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I miss being a GM for my group...

I’ve been the GM for my friend group and for one year I’ve been the architect giving voice to many places, many characters, a whole world for us to explore. At times my goal was only to instill fears into my players, identify what they were most afraid of loosing and made the threat of it happening looming over their head.

I rarely every killed my characters, I just feel shitty doing so; and I found more creative ways of creating consequences for failures. I didn’t just want death to be a problem, I wanted real consequences: being forcefully put under the control of the whomever they were fighting, becoming crippled, or loosing something dear to them.

By doing so, when they succeed at accomplishing the goal they set for themselves, it felt amazing and epic! Finally killing this boss!

It was a more-than-amazing experience and it has left me with unforgettable memories which where at the same time funny&epic.

We had to stop because they all started their superior studies after high school and I was one year younger than them. We’re still in contact but we’re all far away from one another and we’re sooo busy.

I’m going to try to find a group to play with, I hope I will because solo TTRPG is cool but I miss the social emulation.

I still prep games, but for nothing because I can’t actually see what I made in action; me being forced to improvise, etc…

I miss doing that lol. So yeah, just wanted to tell this little story

Good night ;)

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how's your week going, Beehaw
  • Welcome :)

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    I don’t understand what’s happening in the chat, and people are super salty and not open to discussions so I see what you mean.

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    [Discussion] New month, new games. What are you playing on your Deck? - March 2024
  • I like tabletop roleplaying games but Citizen Sleeper looks boring and the reviews don’t look flattering either

  • [Discussion] New month, new games. What are you playing on your Deck? - March 2024
  • I just finished another Cyberpunk game called Sanibi, I highly recommend it, it’s freaking amazing. I don’t know which other cyberpunk game I can play with great stories (already done Katana Zero) so I bought Celeste but I’m almost at the top of the mountain already.

    So I continued my play through of BGIII and I had a blast!

  • What games make you happy?
  • I was playing Sanibi yesterday, my heart was warmed by the introduction with his daughter playing with the main character. Now I’m just crying all tears, but the game is amazing

  • US Soldier Sets Himself on Fire outside Israeli Embassy in Washington to Protest Gaza War
  • Sigma balls light himself on fire, beta feel threatened at the realization of their cowardice and powerlessness.

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  • How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?
  • I think I’m gonna become a weed farmer then. Better life, better mindset and the music will sound fire.

  • How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?
  • I’m doing a special version of my baccalauréat where I do both the French exam, and the A Levels

  • Tucker Carlson: Putin takes charge as TV host gives free rein to Kremlin
  • I didn’t watch the whole thing… as the amazing J Cole Says « Nothing New Under The Sun »

  • How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?
  • Buy a tiny house, put all my music stuff in it, invite some friends and make some synthwave.

    Then, boot up Linux, contribute to open-source and reach the highest level of masteries of the C programming language arcanes.

    At night, buy good groceries from the store to make super good food and then DM my roleplaying game campaign for my friends and go to bed after a full filling day of meaningful work.

    Then try to visit the world, meet people, make friends, talk do stuff and repeat.

    I want to work, but work on meaningful stuff.

  • How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?
  • I’m in the french high school system which are very long working days (which is normal) on uninteresting things with teachers that hate teaching, and classmates with endearing stories but questionable sex lives of which they talk way too much.

    In all this shallowness, I have no energy when I get back at home, after doing my shitty math homework, to even boot up my laptop to work on my coding project.

    It’s constantly fighting your mind that tells you that there’s more to life, that you should not waste your time with such a poor experience.

    But you don’t have self-determination, you just have the responsibilities of going there, putting down a smile, and get fingered for good grades to go to a shitty engineering school teaching Java from 2008 and then work at a shit ass computing job where you’re the genius computer guy installing Adobe Reader on everyone’s PC.

  • How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?
  • I went to Malawi during 2-weeks for faring in an eco-lodge and I remember that in the contact of new people & nature I felt better than ever, I feel like it’s not my mind but more of the accumulation of shitty stuff everyday.

    I’m actually in the situation you lived through, I’m in the french high school system, last year with exams. School has always been hard for me, fighting my mind, being harassed, I’ve come to hate it, I’d be better off on wikipedia learning stuff by myself.

    But everyday I’m forced to go to experience the shallowness of people, teachers & educators. I have no energy to do anything but… consume content on my phone to not think about my shitty situation.

    And right now, I’m so fed up this existence of student, trapped in the petulent academic system that I can even focus anymore. I can’t think, I can’t write, I can’t remember.

  • How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?
  • I love making music, I love coding & contributing to open-source, I love writing/DMing tabletop roleplaying games & stories, I love reading fantasy & philosophy (mainly) books, I love to grow gourmet shrooms, I love meeting interesting people, urban exploration

    I love the world and what it has to offer, I can not participate in it… I’m stuck in this shitty situation

  • How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?

    I’ve 🐝 bee-n fighting for two years now. I have this « job » that I’ve been stuck with forever now. My inability to enjoy the little things of life is just another indication of my dereliction: hating the bitter man I’m becoming, seeing myself in people I despise, being unable to think, speak, create.

    There’s no future for me here. No way out from my work. No time to dedicate to what I love. I read the introduction of Camus’ « L’homme Révolté » about absurdism in other to be something else than a consuming shitty human, and I don’t agree with most of the moral dilemmas: killing yourself is not the same as killing another person. I’m making a choice for myself and maybe, one of the limits of this argument is that I’m imposing my absence on others…

    But who might miss me? My family & friends? It’s true, there are the ones that made me stay this long, but nothing is changing, and I need to help myself.

    ಥ_ಥ, maybe see you tomorrow ?

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    how's your week going, Beehaw
  • Meth is still meth lol no just kidding sorry

  • These days there is too much nerve-racking content on Beehaw, we should post less articles and more about the life of the people here!

    All this « editorial » content is so unnerving with so much shit happening in the world. It does not feel like a safe place if you doomscroll every time you browse it…

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    "Cars are the worst product for privacy" | Hope this will reach the normie consumer!
    foundation.mozilla.org It’s Official: Cars Are Terrible at Privacy and Security

    All 25 car brands we researched earned our *Privacy Not Included warning label – making cars the worst category of products that we have ever reviewed

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    What are some libraries, software, etc... that you'd like to see be built in open-source?

    I’m trying to get accustomed to writing asynchronous/concurrent Rust or any language!

    I just want to build software that helps people, and hopefully makes friends along the way.

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    Some ideas for the future of Rentry! Let's talk!
    rentry.co I’m too young to have witnessed the birth of Rentry, yes that’s incredible! I wasn’t using the in...

    First, let’s talk about open-sourcing+federation. Imagine that anyone could host a peer instance of Rentry to synchronise the pages together. +makes the future of the platform viable & open +federation is good because accountability is shared so you won’t have to manage everything that happe...

    I’m too young to have witnessed the birth of Rentry, yes that’s incredible! I wasn’t using the in...
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    Valve's compatibility rating for Steam Deck doesn't even try to be accurate anymore... Baldur's Gate 3 doesn't run well on the Steam Deck, it's okay... you can't support every devices but be honest!

    If a game hypes a lot of people up, it will be verified. That’s like, the most important factor… not even the performance, the controls, etc…

    As seen in the title, Baldur’s Gate 3 is the perfect example of this: running at 20FPS with constant dips and my Steam Deck on the verge of exploding isn’t what I call “a game flawlessly running on the Steam Deck…”

    Just try to be honest guys, it’s okay if the game is badly rated for compatibility with the Steam Deck, it’s not a big deal if it’s too demanding to run on the handled.

    But DON’T BE MISLEADING

    Thanks :))

    EDIT: Not tested on the most recent major update. The big one with many changes to the flow of the game.

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    Need help to make a super simple setup for my mom !

    Hey! My mom recently decided to cancel her subscription to Netflix as she didn’t to give money to corporations and heard about how I got everything I needed online through Torrenting.

    I decided to make a little surprise for her and make her the most convenient TV setup she can easily use!

    It’s hard because I’m a tech-savvy guy and I just watch everything with VLC/mpv after getting it on qBitTorrent. For her convenience as she knows little about piracy, I don’t want to force her to look for the ideal torrents, and the language/subtitles.

    (☞゚ヮ゚)☞ Here’s my idea: the ideal Streamio + + Torrentio + Trakt on an Android TV.

    I just need to know about some things:

    • Your recommended Stemio add-ons to make her life easier. I need to read this list (GitHub’s awesome-stremio)
    • If she doesn’t find the show in French in the list, how to make it super easy to get the right subtitles from OpenSubtitles?
    • We have a Mi Stick as an Android TV and the experience has been very bad, It’s tiny & laggy, I shouldn’t have bought this for her.
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    If you have any other advices, please do enlighten me !! -noctis

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    A lot of people hate crypto, and I can understand, however...

    … the founding ideas are promising, and something I dream of.

    Before I start, just a little bit of background on me so you can understand how biased I am (😅): I’m a 16 years old programmer and I won a few crypto hackathon/funding rounds and I made a lot of friends in the field. It allowed me to get quite a bit of ETH/XMR along the way!

    I see cryptocurrencies getting a lot of hate, rightly so for the number of scams, shitcoins, NFTs bullshit, “governance”, DAOs and all those often useless & snob terms.

    However the founding ideas of decentralisation and freedom with your money are very appealing to me. Smart contracts are really interesting for creating your own banking operation and tokens can represent anything! It’s a world of possibilities to play with, and you get to build something useful for people!

    I’d just like to add a bit of nuance tho: I see a lot of apps being built and what’s really making me laugh is the lack of open-source, decentralisation and auditing on privacy. Granted, there is a lot of fake promises, but it’s like everything, you have to find the talented people to follow.

    I find it fascinating to build unstoppable, decentralised, user-first apps. I just hope that web3 stays true to its founding principles.

    Hope it was interesting, tell me what you think!

    EDIT: title+typos+the game is not comfortably played in Act 2

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    noctisatrae noctisatrae @beehaw.org
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