gabuzomeu @ gabuzomeu @jlai.lu Posts 0Comments 7Joined 4 wk. ago
Is Lemmy and this online double life you escape to the way you normally cope? Do you see someone in real life about those feelings?
I hope they leave you alone soon.
Hey,
So I feel down. I've been feeling bad for 3 weeks now, despite the meds.
It all started with a woman with whom I shared this very quick, powerful attachment, which suddenly turned around into... Something else ; I'm not sure what yet, but in any case I fucked it up.
Along the way (and thanks to her) I've ended up realizing a bunch of messed up stuff about myself, and I'm now questioning basically everything about my life, including some of my closest friends, who I truly am under all the layers of bits I took from them... And now I'm confused, ashamed at my confusion, ashamed in general, feeling guilty about that messed up stuff, and pretty lonely.
I need to work on all that, but I keep procrastinating the emotional work it requires. Or maybe I'm just impatient ; I have started some stuff : I'm in the process of switching therapists for example. But the mood is still most of the way down.
#SUTOM #1216 2/6
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Laissez-moi croire que c'est du talent plutôt que de la chance svp
Moi je crois que c'était pas un problème de chance...
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