The talk with the psl wasn't bad I just had a few awkward moments
Most of the people I'm around are reactionaries and every -ism especially my whole family. Talking to people on lemmygrad is somewhat good but i am craving physical interaction pretty strongly.
Coffee for breakfast and whatever I can obtain for lunch and dinner (Plant-based specifically)
I hesitated on a couple questions and I had a little bit of anxiety
But, I am going to talk to them on friday
I've been interested in the sport for a while because I think it's fun. Not apart of any team yet but probably getting there.
I've been trying to join a political party for awhile (PSL & FRSO) but i found my self in a bunch of swarming concerns like: -not being able to join either party due to both not having an -hearing about the bad things about both parties -the PSL's use of google forms -seeing the comment about how the upper leadership in the FRSO are a bunch of feds. -and the $20 annual fee in the FRSO.
yeah, the intrusive thoughts are messing with me very hard.
I just want to kill my "family" and a bunch of other assholes, pack all of my stuff, steal a plane, and fly to the socialist countries. But I also want to stay for the revolution plus the killing of my "family" and others. And i am on the brink of homelessness. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
Anytime if I'm in a interview or filling out an application and they ask a question similar to "tell me a little bit about yourself", i get very anxious on what to say or where to start.
I've been wanting to write a surreal novel based/inspired by a Vaporwave album I love for a long time. I'm not sure if i should publish it, but im just sharing the things that i have on my mind.
anytime i want to post something on lemmygrad like a question or a thought, i get some odd resistance that tries to hold me back from posting. and there is so many things i want to post right now
