My annual feeling of extreme loneliness due to lack of romantic relationships and my absolute hopelessness of getting one have begun

At the age of 34, being extremely socially reclusive, and being autistic myself, I don't really think I have any chance of getting a relationship. I also have issues with staying attached to neurotypical/non-autistic people, people that drink alcohol regularly (I was raised by an alcoholic grandmother, you probably can put the two together), also I'm disabled in other ways too, etc.

A lot of people often like to say "ace/aro/demi people just too disappointed/have too high standards". Here I am being so disappointed and probably having way too high standards, yet I still vow for a romantic relationship, and thus often feel lonely from it.