Who knew the thing that makes stuff I can’t see not exist can also make people not exist unless they’re just front and center in my mind.
It’s so foreign to me that other people experience an attenuation in affection towards others if they don’t keep up regularly.
People I don’t see just exist out of time in my head and I feel the same about them as I last did.
I've never understood recency bias in friendship. If we're friends, what does it matter how long its been? Why does a relationship degrade simply because time has elapsed? Is your brain so fickle? Is there no expectation of continuity? Loyalty? Does a treasured item that's been put in a drawer for a time lose its innate value?
In this regard, I prefer my brain to whatever the hell normative is; I don't require constant or regular affirmation to remain steadfast in my beliefs.
I have a fast rate of friendship and comfort decay. If I can interact with my friends regularly throughout the week I feel like my life absolutely glows, but if people start canceling or life just gets too busy, the moments I do get to spend with them starts feeling forced and awkward. Some people seem to thrive interacting with their friends occasionally or once every week or two, but I turtle shell super fast once regularly interactions stop.