Meredith, one of my other hamsters || Trans Megathread from May 12th, 2025 to May 18th, 2025

Hi! I've been extremely tired this week and nearly forgot that I was hosting one so I'm writing this last minute! I couldn't think of anything so I'm going to write about one of my hamsters who is not Biggs; Meredith

Meredith was another hamster of mine from a few years ago during the early days of COVID, and she was the absolute sweetest little creature I had ever met. Very friendly, very gentle. She loved exploring anywhere I put her into and never bit me ~~okay she did once ever~~. She was an absolute sweetheart and bundle of love and was with me during some of the rougher parts of my life

She unfortunately died very suddenly out of the blue one day at a terribly young age showing no symptoms of anything wrong with her prior, which breaks my heart to this very day

I never had her as long as any other hamster of mine but I don't think I had any other hamster touch my heart in quite the same way. I miss you, girl

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I can't simply state "I like men" and I don't know why. It's true, but I always feel like if I state it I have to go on the defensive and justify myself somehow even though I just... don't?
I like girls too. fucking love them.

. I can say that confidently and without hesitance
but if I say I like men then I get super hesitant. my hand reaches for the back of my head and I feel... awkward? idk. I guess all my trans friends are transbians and I feel kind of out of place when I say "but men tho". but i'm on hexbear now and i still feel awkward talking about it? ugh
- In theory, I feel pansexual. In practice, it seems like I'm pretty much near damn exclusively into women. Really, it seems more like I'm into feminine people, regardless of gender, but there are some critical exceptions there. I'll say that, but then I'll casually scroll social media and stare too long at the occasional good-looking masc dude who pops up on my feed, especially if there's something about their character, personality, or beliefs I also find hot, e.g., I saw this really attractive vegan dude a few days ago.
  I think the reason for me seemingly being mostly into women is that I have very niche preferences and dating requirements, and I find that, statistically, women are far more likely to meet my standards, but if I meet a man who checks all my boxes and whatnot, I'd honestly go crazy for him, too.
  I'm at a point where I fundamentally feel weird identifying with the concept of sexual orientation itself. I was talking to a cishet friend of mine (who has a pansexual wife) about this, and he's quite open-minded and really valued this analogy I gave:
  I still hold myself to be pansexual, but, to be honest, I feel weird about labeling my sexuality specifically because I disapprove of the concept of gender itself. Even though the label "pansexual" just says that I don't regard gender, that in and of itself still involves me having a label in reference to how my attraction relates to gender.
  An analogy I like to use is that I never would say something like this about earlobe type. If someone asked me "Are you into people with free earlobes or attached earlobes?" I would find it incredibly awkward to identify with a label like "panearlobeal" or something like that even though it's true—I really don't give a fuck about earlobe type!
  But that's just me rambling, haha!
  Labels like "pansexual" or saying sentences like "it seems like I'm pretty much near damn exclusively into women" help from a practical perspective I guess, but it really isn't anyone else's business unless they're a person who I'm attracted to and they are reciprocating. I'm not "confused" about my sexual orientation itself. I know what I like, but I'm just not someone who can find too much value in labeling it because of how I perceive the concept of gender itself.
  I've been getting a similar vibe with my gender identity, in which I don't internally care to really label my gender at all, but similarly, I can find value in words like "non-binary," "androgynous," "genderless," and "transfeminine" as practical labels. In some sense, me calling myself "non-binary" has been feeling the same as if I, as a vegan, were to start calling cows "non-livestock."—it entails using language where the label is used to directly communicate misalignment with a system that I'd rather not acknowledge or validate at all.
  At this point, for the most part, I've just been doing the good ol' "just call yourself queer and refuse to elaborate" thing.
- Its okay to like men
  
  tbh I feel weird about liking/saying I like women sometimes. I think sexuality can just be kind of- I guess sensitive? weird feeling? not sure exactly how to describe it- for trans people but maybe I'm generalizing too much.

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