JD_Vyvanse [he/him, they/them] @ JD_Vyvanse @hexbear.net

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(thinkin on all the disgusting & farcical processes that naturally happen in the human body every day)

i usually skip my adhd meds today b/c of lighter workload reasons but they sent me to cover at a different job site today b/c of repairs at my usual one & they clearly don't know what to do with me and i have no idea what's going on here and honestly i think i'm in one of the shallower layers of hell (and if this had happened just like two days later my annual leave probation would be over so i could have just taken a day off with a use-it-or-lose-it leave day). fuck this malaise nightmare reality aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

srry i just wanted to vent & gripe hahaha i love being neurodivergent it's so lit

that's fair!!

gf met the comrades at a film screening tonight & it was extremely sweet and the vibes were immaculate :') everyone got along and honestly it felt really beautiful in a transcending loneliness and atomization kind of way :')

do what you gotta do, but instead of blocking you can also consider just replying with "disengage" and report them for harassment (if they ignore the disengage that's report-worthy too). don't want my comment sniped for metaposting so keeping it broad, but seems the site is having an issue with very new and/or few-to-no comment accounts stirring shit.

i'm not sure about federated accounts, but i know within hexbear you just can't see the blocked person's posts and that's it. they can not only see yours, but still comment on them. something i've wanted to bring up formally but the dedicated meta channels seem kinda dead or at least very slow/low activity.

on the one hand the Witch King of Angmar was a Based Martyr (slain by woke DEI despite best efforts to fight teh SJW menace)

on the other hand they definitely did pronouns (Witch KING????)

very dialectics, i discuss this with the boys at the ACP often

hell yeah big s/o to a journey of self understanding & acceptance

lol no ur all good it's nbd. i was going for a like unhinged stream of consciousness vibe/poking light fun at how much we spoiler tag posts (obv a good thing for srs content warnings)

yeah i did it to be silly, is datingposting stuff we should usually spoilertag? i can amend if so lol

EDIT: i'll fix it just in case/because why not

how could i forget lil fucker made me fart up a storm on a first date, totally blew up my spot

for the best tho i'm a ML and she was a MLM so it would never have worked out our taste in theory was way too different

always

this part comes from the fact thaat all i do is post b/c i have no life

i'm always bad posting b/c i'm a certified baddie

ahahahahahahaha this is so funny after what i just said two posts earlier ahahahahaha

another promising relationship flushed to self sabotage

oof yeah that sounds really ass, i had in mind more stable employment WFH and idt i'd trade what i have rn for what u outlined above. my ex partner also used to WFH but the corpo she worked for worked her to the bone and drained her dry, would also prefer my current job over that. but sometimes i look at my tech project manager/email job friends and i can't help but be like

so once ur ready to change shit abt yourself & u've found someone cool and compatible is the secret to unlearning avoidant/anxious avoidant type bullshit just kind of brute forcing it? i.e. just like Doing The Thing of direct-but-caring-and-charitable communication and sitting with the Sudden Fear Chemical Feelings til they pass over and over and over until your brain unlearns its bad habits?

tryna do that rn and it's kinda ass but it's also kinda lit at the same time, very dialectics

i never want to dump on other working class ppl for getting the bag in the most tolerable way possible, but man i envy WFH mfs sometimes. my job actually has to be on site for logistical reasons but there's also a lot of downtime, if only i could use that downtime to go for a walk, read, write, play a game (anything fun &/or enriching rlly) rather than internet drift. one of the big barriers in the way of my internet detox/moderation efforts.

fell off it at about the 1/4 mark, want to pick it back up cuz it was really good but life just doing a bit too much life-ing & i can't find the space for it. i'm also afraid of how