Took Lorazepam + xanax + alchol, am I risking my life?

Xanax was something like 2mg, lexotan 2.5 mg i suppose, and a glass of strong wine.. I am feeling really relaxed, like nothing matters and sleepy, but am I really in danger?

It's hard to walk straight and I kinda am forgetting what I am doing along the way.. Yesterday evening I also took another 2mg of xanax and then smoke DMT which did nothing except make me more aware of the mess I was living in.

I don't think I care if I die but I just don't want to suffer

Update 1: added another 15 drops of lexotan, it's kinda getting hard keeping count, it is 2.5mg/ml, how many drops is an ml? Should I really care? How does respiratory arrest feels like? Will I suffer? Or just fall asleep? I suppose benzos will at least ease out the pain.

Update 2: woke up a couple of hors later, taking more lexotan and see if I can lead myself to tomorrow's