10h ago

weekend from hell

On Monday I have a meeting with my boss and his boss. They wouldn't say what for, only that "I shouldn't worry". Which makes me ABSOLUTELY worry. Don't think I'll be fired but I'll probably be put on a PIP or something.

On top of that one of my cats is actively dying. She's 15 and I'm by no means ready to say goodbye.

Then I decided to upgrade my pc but of course I botched that and now I have a very expensive paperweight, a mountain of frustration, a few thousand € wasted and nothing but misery and shit to look forward to.

Ain't life grand? I'm in my 40's and when I was younger, I kept going thinking "one day surely things will finally be better". But they're not. They always keep getting worse and my ability to cope diminishes instead of growing. I feel every failure separately covering me with their weight, and I've finally racked up enough that the combined stress is starting to crush me completely.

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I'm not in the same shit as you, but it's hard to tell one from another when it's up to your waist.
Keep on keeping on. It's all we can do.

Got a whole weekend to fix the pc. Just focus on that. Pip is better than being fired just follow the program to the T and learn from it. Sorry for your cat
- Just spent another afternoon but I can't get the thing to boot at all. I get every led error under the sun but nothing I do changes a goddamn thing.
  I should've known though. This is the 3rd time in my life trying and failing to build my own pc. I fucking WORK in IT. I'm so useless and stupid it's a miracle I manage to get dressed in the morning. No wonder my colleagues all hate me. They're goddamn right to.

Wow. Your life could be my life. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of that at once.
I have a ton of anxiety about my job right now - they are expecting the world of me and I don't have enough faith in myself to pull it off. Also, my little cat just died.
If you need to talk to someone, no strings attached, I gotchu.
- Just go for it. You usually are way better than you think! And it sounds like the rest has even less of a clue. Just give it your best and document your work and decisions (+ motitavion why you choose what you choose !!!). That way you add to you're own confidence and are able to review an explain what happened and why.

Never understood that. We'll talk Monday, ain't saying anything now but don't you worry. wtf?
- That one down vote is from an unknown executive.
- Monday comes around : sorry have to reschedule for Friday, nothing to worry about
  
  Thursday email: we will talk after my holiday

It's most likely good news not bad news. Your boss could have easily fired you on Friday, but they're bringing their boss in to show you off and talk you up to them. Enjoy your weekend and don't stress about it.
- Oh it's definitely not good news. I've been in hot water with management for over a year now, and they recently cut all bonuses and instigated a hiring freeze.
  Most likely I'll get to do someone else's job on top of mine for no extra pay. And that's a best case scenario.

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