Does anyone else just feel, defeated?
Does anyone else just feel, defeated?
I will preface this by saying: this is nothing to do with the YanKKKoid election.
Anyway, I don't know...I'm just so tired all the time, I feel like I've been defeated by this shitty system.
I did everything our elders told us to do (got two good degrees, learned several skills outside of it etc), and after a while of being humiliated, degraded and talked down at by people at the local unemployment office, then finding a way to get money again...I just can't anymore. Things that used to make me feel happy don't anymore, I've all but stopped even trying to have a social or love life after like 2 years of having barely any money (I've probably been without a love life for at least 5-6 idk anymore 
).
And despite what the chuds say, it doesn't even feel fulfilling to work, knowing that unemployment is right around the corner at any moment for whatever reason. It's also compounded by everything just getting more expensive, and all of my family always putting me down for making bad choices etc 
idk how anyone finds the energy to do all the proper "life" stuff anymore, it's all so exhausting.
Am I making any sense at all? 
"You must realize that I am far from feeling beaten…it seems to me that… a man out to be deeply convinced that the source of his own moral force is in himself — his very energy and will, the iron coherence of ends and means — that he never falls into those vulgar, banal moods, pessimism and optimism. My own state of mind synthesises these two feelings and transcends them: my mind is pessimistic, but my will is optimistic. Whatever the situation, I imagine the worst that could happen in order to summon up all my reserves and will power to overcome every obstacle."
So many people feel the same as you. "Bad choices" be damned. You didn't break the economy, you didn't do anything wrong. Anyone who puts you down for not being the perfect ubermench can kiss my ass
I know, I know. It's just so hard sometimes
...and should be cut off. you aint forced to appease shitty people just because they happen to be related to you.
Oscillating between doomerism and a raging ball of anger is the natural state of a marxist stuck within this system.
Take some time and re-center yourself. It's ok to feel down, but we must continually pick ourselves back up.
Late stage capitalism is kicking hard. Really feels like the small sliver of freedom one could live, inbetween total precariousness and poverty and the total hell of suburban conformity has been eroded into nothing.
Really feels like the small sliver of freedom one could live, inbetween total precariousness and poverty and the total hell of suburban conformity has been eroded into nothing.
And people still have this idea that it exists still, if only you Hustle™ enough.
This is naturally how late stage capitalism is supposed to make you feel. Remember that no matter what anyone has told you, none of this is due to personal failure, just systemic failure (or systemic success from the bourgeouisie perspective).
If you have 6 days that are impossible and 1 day where you can find just one good thing, however small, that fulfills you, then not all is lost. You cant do it all and you arent expected to do it all, just do what you can do for yourself. Dont spend time worrying about what you arent doing or fretting that you dont have the energy. If all you can do is go to work and lay in bed after, thats fine.
I hope things improve for you soon and remember you always have a legion of internet tankies behind you
yea i love not being able to do anything about anything
I produce enough spite and class hatred to keep chugging along anyway.
me, i think this is more common than we might be aware of.
just that feeling that we have no future, and all of that wasted time we spend at work being micromanaged in every way they can will bear no fruit for us at all. plus being alienated and lonely, like we are just work machines.
i want to know what the fuck yall doing to cope.
Never surrender comrade. You are not a failure for not succeeding in a competition that was rigged before you were born. Failing to fit into a system made to exploit and oppress is not a surprise or a mark against you, the opposite really. Gather with others, make community, burdens shared are burdens lightened. If we are to survive in this world, we will have to survive together.
I'm tired too, comrade.
