I love software. But only because I understand it's limitations. I love developing software for engineering applications. Problem is that type of software is mostly developed by a handful of companies due heavy consolidation and difficulty in handling development of such software. So I have a hard time getting a job in this space. Eventually, because of some bad experiences, I am thinking about moving away from tech. But I love learning about CAD, FEA and how to develop such softwares. This situation just makes me sad.
Currently, I am setting up a small horticulture business and keeping software dev as strictly hobby. But, I feel like I haven't been given a fair chance and that hurts.