This. I don't partake anymore because if I have too much, it puts me in a full-blown anxiety attack, sometimes with existential terror mixed in, and couch-lock on top of that. Nothing quite like appearing to be having a fine time to the outside world while internally being trapped somewhere between emotional purgatory and hel for several hours.
The risks outweigh the benefits for me. That just means more for everyone else though ;)
It actually is a trigger. CBD on the other hand... That's my godsend. It will squash my panic attacks almost always.
I used to be able to smoke "regular" weed as long as I made a blend of CBD and THC, but within the last month that's gone now... Could be 90% CBD and a sprinkle of THC and I'll still feel like I'm having a heart attack...
I wish it was just a panic attack for me. I can't describe it.
The world switches to existing in a purely "chunked" experience. I smell, then I see, then I hear, then I feel, then I taste, never at the same time. Agony for 4ish hours of a racing heart and a mix between nausea and cursing how it must be how stupid people feel all the time. No ability to process anything.
Will the food stay down? Will it come back up? No one knows but it's going to be a rollercoaster I can't get off of.
Nothing feels remotely good about it. I envy anyone who can enjoy it
Well i think that some research shows that weed can full on accelerate your mental breakdowns and help them surface or whatnot, so it's not the best thing in the world, maybe the high CBD variants would help you calm down
Weed also effects me way more than other drugs it's odd. I definitely support it and will enjoy just in extreme small amounts. But like I swear coke and k both have less of an effect on me. Weed practically immobilizes me all night with little to no function.
I've only tried weed gummies. I don't really like the thought of stuff going into my lungs.
Anyway, I don't seem to get anxiety with them, but they make me feel like I'm sick with the flu...except I'm hungry instead of nauseated. It's pretty unpleasant. I don't get pleasurable feelings out of it really unfortunately. Wish I could.
I have no self control with weed, I was literally high for about 3 years straight. Was high functioning, and it helped me through some very difficult times. But I had a severe psychotic break last November that took about 6 months to fully recover from. Tried going back but my tolerance isn't at a place where I can function on it anymore, and if I have it in the house I'm high from when I wake up to when I go to bed. Idk why I have no self control, blame it on the ADD baby. Wish I could smoke a few times per week like my friends but I can't so, I'm on that sober shit.
Its not too bad, I read a bit more and play less video games