this is how I gaslight meself

I needed to hear this!

I have IBS. It isn't the end of the world as a disability at all, and I like to think of myself as thriving, but yes, this impacts all facets of my life, even if I am coping well.

Thank you.

All I do is sleep, hate myself for accomplishing nothing, and go to work.

I actually really like my work because it's the only time I feel productive... It's the only time I feel like a functioning adult.

I'm a janitor

Yup. I feel this.