Iโm going to the snow at the end of the month and have been messaging a friend I let borrow my ski clothes and equipment two years ago. They just never gave me back my stuff and I forgot about it to now. Iโm a bit annoyed they just kept my things, and now my goggles are missing and I donโt remember if I let them borrow. It shouldnโt be up to me to remember and ask for my stuff back, you should give it back once you are done with it without prompt.
I setup the replacement Xbox last night and am finally sitting down and giving it a crack. I have Minecraft, knockoff coke Zero from aldi, a full belly, and a comfy couch. Life is good.
nostalgia trip
In 2016 (or maybe 2017), my mum surprised me with an Xbox from my birthday. It was an Xbox 360 E, and a copy of Minecraft. That was my first time on a console, and I stayed up all night playing it. Literally all night. Probably needless to say she was less than happy I was still up when she woke up, but she just let it be. I had a lot of fun, and also had a few cans of coke over night. That's a core memory of mine that I've never really been able to recreate. There was such a feeling of carelessness and peace that night, a feeling I unfortunately very rarely experienced during my youngest years.
continuation, but less of a fun memory more of a historical vent, probably more sad
That was when I was really struggling with "school refusal", as they call it, and mum was really trying to push me to go. It was a very difficult time, and led to such a feeling of helplessness, probably for both of us. That's probably why I enjoyed the care free feeling the games provided - a little safe haven away from the constant chaos and incessant disappointment and despair of the real world. A world where the biggest concern is placing enough torches to keep the zombies away.
I am having such a shitty fucking day. I've honestly never felt this bad so fast before. Just massively angry, wanting to lash out over everything.
Everything is getting worse and none of us are stopping it(I'm certainly not). My attempts to maybe improve things for myself just add more stress and inevitably fail. I feel like I'm trying to climb a styrofoam wall. I can grab at chunks to try and pull myself up, but all I'm doing is fucking up an already shitty wall.
Spent the arvo doing laundry at the Laundromat, got a coffee, walked down to Barkley Square to suss out dehumidifiers (no bueno, will have to order online), then saw a spontaneous rave:
Didn't catch who it was, but she was absolutely laying down some sick beats from the back of her van ๐ค
Treating myself to a cafe big breakfast because all I got at home is ramen and sardines. While ramen and sardines WAS a tempting option, having no eggs or frozen veg to add sealed the deal
I've discovered Mickey likes to eat spinach. So he got a little pile of it last night and he fully ate it all. May have to occasionally give him a treat of it, he always wants what we eat and it isn't harmful ๐คทโโ๏ธ
Great. I woke up this morning to 2 notifications from my bank. 2 transactions happened while I was asleep, one to some company called xsolla and another to Netflix. I don't have Netflix, and don't know wtf an xsolla is. Called the bank, they told me disputes have to be raised through the app now. The app and it's stupid fake messaging robot didn't let me add any context, the whole process is basically just yes and no buttons. Also it kept talking about humans in almost every message.
It's strange - why am I eager to help my friend clean her apartment but leave my own space a dump when a clean space helps me feel less cluttered mentally?
Got a friend to help me go between Richmond and the CBD looking for work shirts (one heavy duty one and a couple normal ones) to be embroidered for work. Had lunch, plenty of walking in the sun, even some genmaicha ice cream and generally a productive day... Even treated myself to a pair of lovely olive green wide pants and fluffy slippers, both at half price at muji.
The work shirts and slippers I've been procrastinating on to the last possible minute. I got it done with the moral support of my friend who knows the fastest way to get around Emporium and helped me look for a lunch place and parking spaces earlier.
I don't feel nearly as exhausted as yesterday even though I was out for as long and had to do more active stuff, actually even feel a little recharged? It's a nice feeling.
Can I just ask why the hell women's collared shirts are so oversized now though? Seems like the only style is to wear them as overshirts, not straight up shirts. Uniqlo and Muji both i needed an XS, even the Bisley work shirt I had to get a size 8, which is unprecedented (normally 10-12). This is on top of a thermal layer...
Sure I've lost weight from muscle atrophy being sedentary, but my ribcage and shoulders have not changed size over the last 5 years - I hate this new style! I don't have the body shape for it...
When I first watched the Raygun, I figured she was so good at breaking that she transcended traditional style and sort of unleashed a new form on the world stage.
I considered it very poor timing to introduce your genius at the Olympics, and people just arenโt ready for the โmemeโ breakdancing , however, I kept an open mind about the whole affair and considered the possibility that current state of the art form is pushing boundaries in this direction so itโs nothing to worry about.
Iโm still holding out for my perceptions to manifest into a reality but Iโm losing faith here
I bought myself a sneaky wine in the sun and was about to go home but then the singer started and I happen to be the the only person in the courtyard... It would be rude to not have another drink ..(plus she is really good)
The support chat in some apps needs its own notification.
Birds got into the Woolworths delivery yesterday because the doorbell wasn't rung.
I jump on the support chat, because that's the only way you can do anything these days, then waiting for a response I close my phone. I have a job, kids, and a life so I forget about it and the support person leaves the chat. Where does that leave my things the birds got into? I need a buzz or a reminder or something these people have replied
Ha. Haha. Ha. Ha. My day keeps on getting better. New developments:
A. I cut my finger while making dinner. Well, not even while making dinner, while eating dinner.
B. The motor in the fan in the bathroom seems to have burnt out, and left a gross burning plastic smell through the house. At least I hope it's burnt out, because it's wired to the same circuit as the light, so I can't have the light on without the fan also being on
Any peeps of a fishy persuasion? Looking for a three way valve for 4mm tubing, but water, not air. Anyone attest to water carriage of air direction valves?
Made it to the end of Presumed Innocent, the TV adaptation. What a inconsistent show with stupid legal loopholes and soapy writing. It is incredibly unbelievable that the main character could've been a successful prosecutor. Also I hate basically every character in this but not even in a love-to-hate way like Succession. I think I cared more about the cat.
Even Jake Gyllenhaal's perfect butt wasn't enough to save this mediocrity, but somehow it's been renewed for a second season...
Oh. Well apparently I've been overwatering my indoor plants. I felt bad for letting them get all dehydrated while I was away, so I tried to make up for it with some extra water. Now the soil has a rotten egg smell. I google "why TF does my plant dirt smell like rotten eggs???" Google tells me that happens when the plant is over watered and becomes waterlogged. I'm a bad plant parent
Movie Review. The Old Oak. Ken Loach. Syrian refugees come to live in a dying North England mining town, locals react, some with kindness and charity, others with misplaced anger.
It's a Ken Loach fillum innit.
It's not entertaining. It's art. It's about present day issues and challenges facing everyday Britons and New Britons/war refugees . It's respectful and understanding of working class people. Never talks down.
It's not a fun or happy or exciting experience to watch a Ken Loach movie but I find myself thinking about the scenes and people in his movies, sometimes even years later.
Watching his movies enriches my life and understanding of people .