I discovered a new phobia while listening to "Children of Ruin" today

My ADHD demands a low-level background stimulation in order for me to focus, so I will listen to audiobooks as I work, and oh-boy did my book interrupt my focus today.

I'm only halfway through so I don't think it could be considered a spoiler, but:

!spoiler spoiler there's a part where one of the characters is unexpectedly stabbed by a tentacle while studying a seemingly harmless alien species (not the kind of shokushu zeme i'm into personally) and is infected with a foreign organic organism. The guy almost dies from it, but they discover that the organism found a way into his brain and has literally replaced his corpus callosum. The next chapter from his perspective slowly starts replacing first-person pronouns with 'we' and 'us', and then he has a tense confrontation with his crew member that end with him/them sticking a syringe through his tear duct and into his brain, and attempting to inject the crew mate with the parasite!<

There's no reason for me to share this except it has clearly disturbed me and when I tried telling my partner about it they weren't thrilled with my trauma dump.

I guess let this be a warning about this book: the first one of the series is pretty chill but this one really sneaks up to you with the body horror.

My curiosity is pulling me back in wish me luck

Edit: oh my god it gets worse, but it's over now

Carry on