i would like the men in the audience to know that the bar is on the fucking floor

I was a bit rude too, possibly because I hold some self-resentment myself, but also I've had to derive my own methods for dealing with things, and tend to feel like we don't talk the "what next"s enough.

It feels good to be given the space to be a bit special and have needs accounted for, but i've found it all goes out the window when you need to go out and do things. Every time I've given myself that space, I take it for granted and have an even harder time participating in "normal" spaces, which hurts even more than if I just kept up the momentum. I can't expect the people I meet in day to day life to have a grasp on my condition. They've got other stuff going on. The "normal" spaces will always exist to an extent. Someone working 10 hours a day out of the back of a van won't have the energy or care to educate themselves on conditions unless its personal.

Like I think as a community we should have more people offering help to break certain comfort-based cycles. Addiction is the same for anything, and you need to want to break the cycle to get better. I don't think we should shame people for being addicted, but we should still encourage improvement. When I see sentiments that are basically "its okay" without the second step, it makes me feel frustrated because having a safe space wont help me the next time I piss someone off for being a little too autistic. I need to catch it ahead of time and understand myself better to interface with the rest of the world.