Trans Megathread for the Week of 2025-01-06 to 2025-01-12 - Children of Time by Adrian Tchaikovsky

Children of Time is a 2015 science fiction novel by Adrian Tchaikovsky.

In the distant future, humanity seeks to create new habitats for itself on distant planets, terraforming them and seeding them with life. Dr. Avrana Kern is heading one such project, orbiting the tentatively named "Kern's World", where the plan is to release monkeys le-monke infected with a nanovirus that will accelerate their evolution. Through an act of sabotage from an anti-technology group that has also destroyed much of Earth, the monkeys are never released, and the virus instead infects a species of spider, Portia labiata. The book follows the evolution of the spiders and their eventual civilisation, as well as a remnant of humanity that fled to Kern's World hoping to find paradise.

also children of ruin and children of memory, the sequels, are really good

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Got really drunk on saturday and finally came out to my irl friend group chat. Waking up not remembering doing that was "fun". This is also the second time I've gotten way too drunk and came out (first time was almost ten years ago when I came out to them at a party as bisexual)

Would not recommend it.

internalized transphobia relating to age

In my coming out message I put in my chosen name and for the first two days afterwards, I thought that maybe I wasn't ready to do that.

On analyzing that feeling I'm realizing that it might just be attatched to my internalized shame about coming out at my age and feeling that this whole thing, this whole experience, is a kid/teen/young adult thing. Like thinking about it makes me feel like I'm going to be physically ill. I actually gag when I think about it, out of shame or embarrassment.

I think I need to talk to more older trans people.
- I'm probably on the slightly older side of this site's demographic if you ever want to chat or have some questions or whatever, dunno how helpful I can be since uh, my own gender is still an ongoing work in progress but I like to try to help and you're free to ask me anything
- Congrats on coming out? Hope it has gone well. Seems better than coming out to people and later realizing they were too drunk to remember effectively having to come out again on the spot.
  
  spoiler
  
  Does feel weird going through a lot of these experiences at an age I wouldn't expect to be going through these kinds of things. At Christmas, a 3 people in my family were talking about some of their early experiences either realizing they were lesbians and I think they were all like Primary/Elementary school age. Stepmom didn't say anything in that conversation, so I'm now curious if this kind of thing might be why? Idk when she found out, but I'm pretty sure she knew at least by the time she was a teen?
  
  So being like 3 times the age other people have their LGBTQ+ realizations makes it sorta embarrassing I took so long to notice.
- Hi Ambii
  
  same feelings
  
  internalized shame about coming out at my age and feeling that this whole thing, this whole experience, is a kid/teen/young adult thing. Like thinking about it makes me feel like I'm going to be physically ill. I actually gag when I think about it, out of shame or embarrassment.
  
  I really felt the exact same way and still do sometimes. It's actually very common. I made a post about it once, and there were a lot of very supportive people who responded. You can check out what they said Here . I'm on the older end of the general population here as far as transition age goes, but there are some people who transitioned even later than me in that thread.
  
  In fact, this feeling is so common that this isn't the first time I've linked this post
  
  You can DM me whenever if you wanna chat with a ahem mature woman.
  
  also same feelings
  
  Hey, is it cool if I dm you later too? I'm early 30s and still struggling with "I'm too old to still feel this adolescent" type shit
  
  Of course~
  
  Thank you for that post. Commiserating with the comments was... therapeutic (?) in a way.
  
  Definitely. I felt the same way

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