Check In Thread - Late Night Edition - How Are You, Comrade?
Opening up a space for everyone to talk about how they're doing! Got some cool stuff going on? Feeling kinda down? Let's talk about it!
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Started "working" with Outlier, basically training AI responses. Minimum wage, boring ass work, but i put in 70 hours this past week (most of it time thievery). Behind on rent and bills, but if I can push myself for 2 more weeks of this I can maybe catch up! Had a few "serious" job interviews this week, so we'll see where they go. The one I'm looking forward to most is a pet care company, but no response after a phone call like 10 days ago. Partner just got a job today so that's cool!
Beyond that...I dunno. Just feeling kinda blah and not very great. Both tummy and brain troubles today.
I was crying a lot last week from various things, but I'm doing okay right this moment. Making that book club thread lifted a huge burden of irrational guilt from my shoulders and I'm talking to multiple women on the apps right now, so there is potential for things that aren't pain in my life. Might actually get some sleep tonight, too.
I fucking hate Israel. My fucking job (that keeps cutting my hours) gets product from them. My boss came up with a "fun challenge" today where we're given little beads if we talk to customers, just the most asinine, baby-brained stuff. They keep erasing my "FREE PALESTINE" graffiti in the toilet, so I'm slowly, day by day, carving it into the stall so that they can't take it off.
I can't avenge them, I can't avenge the Palestinians, I'm a coward, but at least carved in plastic will be my way of coping with the suffering.
Lmao hell yeah I'm glad you carved the plastic. It would be funny if you got your own beads and started giving them to your coworkers for fulfilling random mundane objectives, really throw a wrench into the work beadconomy.
People were joking that they could start faking beads or finding out where the beads were being bought. This retail job really puts the "wooden" in wooden medal. Did I mention that there are cash rewards and that you can get beads taken away too?
I'm glad the AI thing is working out for you, and that you've got leads on jobs! Is your partner excited about their new job?
I'm having a hard time with my kid and my extended family, separate problems.
My family is pressuring me to use my medical marijuana card to buy them gummies etc, but I don't want to because I don't want to risk getting caught and then losing my ability to get my Adderall prescription, and also, they all qualify for their own medical cards anyway. Why it's a better solution for me to endanger my ability to get the medicine that's keeping me sane than for them to do some paperwork, idfk.
My kid just really seems to be going through a time of particularly disliking me, which I know is just a teenager thing, but it is hard. We were having a silly conversation last week about what kind of plants we would be, and I said I would be moss because I just want to take care of things and be a soft blanket that keeps the ground moist so other things can sprout. He said I'm a cactus, because I don't need much care, I'm prickly, but I'm pretty to look at. 😭 It's been a week, and I'm still not over it, especially since he keeps getting pissy with me about stuff, and I'm trying so hard to just be chill and understanding while he's snapping at me, and all I can think is, "I'm a cactus. I'm a fucking cactus."
💔 probably shouldn't have typed this up, because now I'm crying, which is no way to start the day! 🤦
Anyway, if I think I'm moss but everyone sees me as a cactus, it would explain a lot about my dealings with other people and why I have such a hard time with friends etc. The possibility has really done my head in.
I feel like I can really understand the Cactus thing. Here's to hoping yall two figure things out and become closer. With the family, well, stand your ground.
I'm vacilating between doomlike anxiety and feeling just fine and kind of cool. On one hand i really need a real job because my costs of living outpace the sidework I've been doing and my savings will only last so long and also all my friends are getting married and/or becoming increasingly unrelatable treatlords... but on the other hand I found a lot of cool mushrooms on my last hike and I've lost ten pounds over the last month basically by binge drinking marginally less.
Congrats on the job dawg, can't wait for you to catch up so you can take it at least a little easier. Good luck with the interviews too.
Ayyy thanks! Something with the city parks would be pretty tight, also considering the post office. I'd definitely take any sort of remote work bookkeeping style computer job regardless of how boring/mind-numbingly pointless it was though. I hear electric companies have remote entry-level positions sometimes but I've yet to happen across one.
Mental health is better (I blame the extra hours of sunshine and warmer temperatures), but anxiety has me waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'll have my first state-paid therapy session next week, so hopefully that will help.
Work is driving me mad. I want to quit but have nothing to fall back on and the tech market is ass and the genocide is demotivating me from wanting to do anything. But that's been in the back of my head for months so I'm learning to manage and revolutionary optimism/organizing is keeping me afloat. It's just this damn job in the way.
My ongoing manga series keep me afloat too 🥳 something to regularly look forward to.
Whats the manga? Good luck on the job situation, lost my tech job almost a year ago and know the struggle in that sector well. Things seem to be picking up now at least, but maybe that's just me. Started working online for minimum wage in the meantime. It's something to help with rent at least. It does suck, but if you want a link I'll drop it for sure!
'Oshi no ko' and 'how do we relationship' have been keeping me going. Highly recommend 'how do we relationship' at least, it's a queer drama but the way the mangaka writes characters is so beautiful. They're imperfect, multidimensional, and easy to relate to and sympathize with.
I half thought about doing contract work or taking multiple lower paying roles, but that's so risky and it feels sleey taking multiple jobs when others don't have one. I'll take the link, it's good to keep options open since at my current place the 'if' I starting to feel like 'when'.
Made a recipe/dish that I'd had an intention towards for a few months.
Multiple conflicts have cleared up, largely under my supervision. But other than that, I haven't been accomplishing much, other than doing a lot of dishes.
My savings account is starting to run low, and I know there are a few different things I could do about it. Most likely getting a 25-30 hours/week entry-level job, which would be neither difficult to get nor rough on me, and I could go back to being not so anal about money.