I have a deep urge to be independent, but I think my mind has taken it too far. I want to be able to make everything myself, I want to do all from machining, to electronics and plumbing to bricklaying to programming.
I feel like men reach more for this independence or am I crazy?
Nah I'm like this too. Take it one thing at a time. I also recommend the Adam Savage method of buying tools: Buy the cheapest tool you can and if you use it until it breaks, only then do you buy a quality tool since you clearly use it a lot.