Is it weird to sometimes wonder wether everything you know is wrong?
I don't know, sometimes the though of "what if all my leftist ideas are false? What if trans people are just mentally ill? What if gay people are just deviants?"
I honestly really don't like it...
It's good to question your beliefs I guess, it's how you grow, but it sometimes makes me really uncomfortable. Why does this happen? Can I stop it? Should I?
It's pretty normal. There's a graph that plots confidence as you gain new skills or knowledge, and it sounds like you're on the down-slope of Mt Stupid and coming into the Valley of Despair.
I have spent my life learning for fun and if I can be said to have learned anything about the process it's that the more you learn the better you understand just how vastly complex everything is, how many ways you could be wrong, and how insufficient your earlier simple assumptions were. Like yeah, maybe trans people are just mentally ill because there have been a few cases where that seems to be the case. But does that make it okay to deny all of them the agency and dignity of being able to decide who they want to be? Even if we define gender-affirming care as 'harm', we seem fine as a society with people harming themselves with stuff like cigarettes, why are we not fine with people 'harming themselves' with gender-affirming care?
At the end of the day the question you have to ask yourself is: would you rather never be made uncomfortable by this realization that things are more nuanced htan you thought, or would you rather have the most accurate information about the world that you can get? Because you can't have both. Moral/intellectual certainty is a pipe dream, that way lies true evil, because no one cares less about others than someone who is absolutely convinced that they're right/just.
