how's your week going, Beehaw

Bad. The guarantee of a fifth major financial crisis in my lifetime tends not to be great for the old mental health.

I'm feeling very ready to leave the country. On one hand, I know it's an anxiety attack, but on the other hand, it's no measure of mental health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.

I'm so tired, beeple.

Made too many plans, now I'm tired but luckily the weekend is nearly there so I can rest do even more

I spontaneously booked a hairdresser appointment last weekend and really enjoyed getting my hair cut. The differences are quite small but it made me feel euphoric :)

No one at work has noticed ofc but fuck them I'm vibin 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

Idk randomly dipping real hard this week. I don't seem to be able to fix it and I don't know why. It will probably pass in a few days, I sometimes get like this. Hard to focus, hppd acting up and partially dissociating. I just want to get back to normal like last week.

Worked almost 40 hours for spring break. As much as I hate working during my break, I think it's ultimately a blessing: I'm getting out of an internship that I don't like sooner rather than later.

Now it's back to the grind. Somehow got most of this week's assignments done already, but I know a couple of things that will kick my butt later this week. Hopefully it doesn't mess with me too much.

I want to get ahead and work on outside projects because I know I can't rely on my current program to help me get into my career. And I'd like to network more with the local community, but I gotta plan ahead and manage my time better, haha... Things are just rough right now with two jobs.

There are a lot of worries piling up in my head right now. I think I need to rest.

Bad. Tired. There are 2000 picks in the system at any given time and I'm not making a dent in the work and they're guilting me for not working over.

I just feel really emotionally unstable and all my relationships stress me out.

My little sister in law just got her letter saying she's been accepted to Purdue!

currently reading:

As I previously told, I decided to RMA my netbook server's SSD and send it to Denmark for repair. In the meantime, I put the server's original HDD back, installed Ubuntu Server and now it runs several other things, except for NextCloud. It clearly looks like the laptop's SATA port isn't at fault, as the laptop's been running for over a week with no interruptions and errors whatsoever.

What else? I may try to code several of my Angular projects.

It's been a long one. Kids are back in school as of today and I'm on my Friday at work. Tomorrow is taxes and other hateful paperwork.

My ass needs a nap 3/4 of the day, every* day. I guess I need to be a cat. I'd also be ok with the 15 year lifespan.