IM GAY

AND TRANS

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hello, trans comrades! how do I start stockpiling DIY HRT for the trans people in my life? is there anywhere someone can point me for resources/things I should know? feel free to DM if you want!

much love for all of you

How did I become the kind of trans girl that can't read the word gridlock the right way

Wish I could fully enjoy the schadenfreude, but I fear Trump will make it a priority to lit hormone access in his first 100 days

no matter who wins or loses we're all winners for breaking out of this AGAB crap

Pickle juice is like my secret ingredient now, I'm like a french chef cooking with wine but with brine. One cup of brine for the food one for me

I went to the thrift store and picked out a couple skirts and a cute sweater, the changing room was closed so I tried on a skirt in the McDonald's bathroom and it fit. I don't know how I had the courage to do this because Ive barely worn women's clothing on my own let alone in public but I just kept it on as I took the bus home. I was giddy laughing to myself because I looked in the mirror and actually liked how I looked. I have some thinking to do

I've never been big on physical touch (except with my wife), and I avoid when anyone else tries to hug or touch me, but... I'd quite like to experience a queer cuddle puddle at least once

My sleep these past days has been alright, I go to bed with half a gallon of water and usually by midnight I finish it and get another half gallon of water.

Have slowly come to realize I like the puppygirl thing more as an identity than like a kink thing

What it feels like is my gender is just Girl with Dog Characteristics. Also if body mods are ever a thing within my lifetime I would want dog ears and a tail

I used to make fun of my mom for being into witch shit, and now look where we are... 🧹 🪄

Feeling more comfortable in my skin than possibly ever.

I like my new name, and it's become a natural part of me very quickly.

My preferred clothes ("women's" clothing), which previously I had to work up a lot of emotions to put on, are just a matter of course now. I wear them without even really thinking about it.

I'm less concerned with words like man/woman/enby or pronouns. Just focusing on my own experience. More confident and comfortable with my sexuality.

4 months of laser hair removal is paying off. I have a lot of sessions in front of me, but the results are real and noticeable. I'm happy every time I see it in the mirror. I don't break down crying after I can't get a close shave anymore. If I have a little stubble, it's okay. It'll be gone soon enough.

Voice training continues to be an obstacle. I find it very emotionally draining, but I'm trying. I've done more consistent training in the last few weeks than ever before. It's not where it needs to be, but it's good. Eventually, it will become second nature like the clothes.

All together, thoughts of transition are less fear-based and more colored with calm excitement and confidence.

It feels good, people. I'm really embodying the love/loves atm

A cute girl complimented my jacket and then left so I didn't get to compliment her :(

fat tiddies

shoes off torrid coming in the mail

thigh full of E

extra cozy cardigan

one hell of a mahjong soul winning streak

what more could a t girl ask for?

For some reason I thought I would smell better when sweaty on estrogen, but it still smells bad. Smells different but still bad

Is there a good way to hang up flugs in my room where they won't flap when a ceelinh fan is on? I heard command strips are okay but they are pretty expensive. I'm not able to use pins because I am in a dorm Edit: never mind they are cheaper than I thought. I guess I could use like painters tape tho which would be cheaper

It's gonna take a least half a year before I can take hormones from my healthcare provider so I'm thinking of just doing DIY in the meantime. I'm starting with blood tests and then I'll see if I want to take it further

What if... reality TV dating show but a slow burn horror time loop video game 🤔

I think there's something to this

holy fuck, cardigans are so fucking comfy this is unreal

Friend just got her HRT meds and I'm afraid they gave her possibly the worst regimen ever.

The gif of the gecko vibing that Liv Agar puts in the corner of her streams should be an emote here

also

Also the injection got done :catgirl-heart:

Results without the BS:

love/loves: 8 votes (lovely, I'm a based trans now #thallopilled #thallosweep)

fae/faer: 7 votes (I'm reading Throne of Glass (Empire of Storms/Tower of Dawn) right now...)

pup/pup's: 5 votes (sorry pups)

sie/hir: 3 votes (powerful)

they/them: 4 votes (idk)

doe/deer: 3 votes (deer-moding)

If this taught me anything, it's that I'm chill with many pronouns. I love love/loves and fae/faer, but found myself hoping for a sie/hir sweep. Honestly, they/them feel like legacy pronouns to me. Doe/deer is also good in it's own right, and although I'm more of a catgirl myself, I would have run pup/pup's for a bit had it won.

pronouns are now she/love/fae/sie on rotation due to slot limitations.

TL;DR: CONGRATS TO THE LOVES!

Makin' homemade preetza tonight, wish me luck

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alright girls i'm about to buy too many shoes wish me luck :)))))

It's Adam and Eve, not Adam or Eve

Every time I give a video essay in my youtube feed a chance it always sucks ass. I clicked one about how modern mass media suck wich had 600k views and it's making literal cinema sins tier "critiques" about continuity errors. who tf cares?

Just saved my wife's life with my puppy nose

I wish my puppy face wasn't so red

anyone else want to be a mod?

hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!

the list as it stands:

oscardejarjayes* (11/11 - 11/17)
HelltakerHomosexual* (11/18 - 11/24)
GayTuckerCarlson* (11/25 - 12/1)
Luna* (12/2 - 12/8)
Eco* (12/9 - 12/15)

EstraDoll (3/2 - 3/8)

​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

I wish I had started at a high dose off the bat instead of fucking myself over on the first few crucial years with low and inconsistent doses.
I wish I was skinnier/more comfortable with my weight so I could feel fine gaining weight for HRT affects.
I sometimes wish I was just ace so I could have that as an excuse for my hang ups with physical intimacy.

So, now that it's been a couple weeks since initially shaping my eyebrows (and overall I happy with them), I am being plagued by hairs regrowing in the plucked area. I don't mind replucking them, but when they're so small it's difficult to get a grip on them, and they make my eyebrows look bushier than they are do to the color even if they don't contribute any volume per say. Should I just use an eyebrow razor and deal with them via shaving, or should I just pluck them as they get long enough to repluck?

OMG I found my old headphones!

Well, it finally happened. I don't know how, but it did. My gender's on the move again, and so I was thinking about it while taking a test. My brain somehow thought about my E dose and my upcoming blood test, and then it hit me.

I MISSED MY INJECTION

Anyone just do a little eye makeup and lip gloss and that's it? I'm looking at tutorials for the first time and it's way too much. I'm not doing a full face with foundation and all that. Also, I work a manual labor job, outside in heat/rain, get sweaty, etc. How to do minimal eye makeup that also won't smear everywhere if I get sweaty? Oh, I also have hooded eyes. @MusicOwl@hexbear.net @magi@hexbear.net

i have so many incredible, dumb stories from tonight. i hope i remember them

Why are nice clothes so expensive?

pooing it and pooing it and pooing, it smell

A capybara's top speed is 20 mph, please remember this fact it could save your life.

The best thing about losing weight is being able to sit cross legged in unconventional ways I haven’t been able to since my early 20s

I feel like shit but I got a lot done today

The / dialectic is in motion

Going through old comments on stuff like youtube, SCP wiki watching as more and more profile pics put up a trans flag or have trans pride colours - the harvest is coming, more and more nya ha ha... you fool, you posted in the video that makes you trans 8 years ago it's only a matter of time

pain

Voice training and realizing that I have amazing control of the muscles I need already due to years of singing. The thing is... it's with singing. I can't for the life of me control them while speaking (yet). I actually got into it on the way to work this morning, and was able to speak with a pretty good fem voice, but on the way back I just couldn't get it for the whole commute.

I will master this, I will. Am I, a self-described vocalist, really going to let speaking (vocals) get the best of me? NO

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Update on my transphobic supervisor: he spent all morning talking about how some billionaires are good people who earned their money through noble ventures, like investment banking. He tells me he is a stock broker on the side and offers to give me some tips.

Ok but for real why is this guy working in a homeless shelter???

Girl we've been knowing how to draw

Need to get used to my new name. Terrible.

So I'm going to a hair salon tomorrow. It'll be a day of firsts for me. It'll be the first time I've presented as fem in public somewhere other than at my therapists. It'll be my first time really doing anything fem in public. I'm stressed but excited. So to cope I'm trying on a bunch of different outfits right now to see what I like. I think I've settled on an outfit comprised of a gray teeshirt under a cute orange cardigan. I'm trying to decide if I should do the high waisted jeans I have, or a cute orange hippy skirt I like. I could do the skirt over the jeans or leggings if it stays cold and rainy like today. Decisions decisions

I'm pretty used to blank deer-in-the-headlights stares or looks of confusion and disgust, but someone surprised me. We were walking in opposite directions and our paths were about to cross, when they raised their glance at me and their expression instantly became so depressed. Feels good knowing I'm making transphobes lose their will to carry on just by existing. Obviously you can't know what strangers are thinking and feeling from their facial expressions alone, but I'll take the wins where I can

Why does everyone look normal, but me?

Got plenty of sleep last night, still feel miserable today. At least none of my dreams got remembered, so if there was something upsetting in there

storybook sonic still top fave of mine, he'll save the day like usual but he'll also just sit down with you and be an emotional support. The character is 15 or something but it doesn't take that as a cue to just make him immature. like he does deal with things maybe out of his element but he's steadfast in his optimism and support.

Alright, my second pronoun slot is now for sale! I'm doing this to expand my pronoun usage, also just feel like I should have another set of pronouns for the NB times. So, throw them at me. Throw pronouns you like at me, I literally just want to try whatever you all think might suit me. Could also just go back to fae/faer but I've been on a strictly she/her rampage right now and I'm not in the proper state of mind to judge myself right now. A carousel is circular, so I will be eventually .

I've put the three pronoun sets I've used in the past (I ran comrade/them or they/them on an old account).

Upvote the pronouns to pick them, or comment them if they aren't already there. I will turn on upvote view in 24 hours to see the results. If you never want to see something like this again, send me threatening DMs, and I will never do this again

TL;DR, pronouns are fun, pick pronouns with upvote or add new ones in comments please

Hello fellow trans people. I have my first appointment at the gender clinic coming up next week and I’m excited. I won’t be able to start hormone treatment yet but it’s a step in the right direction

Well, I just don't think I'm an eyeliner person. Seems to give my face a look that I'm not going for, although maybe more subtle eyeliner would look better. Additionally, that color corrector I got not only didn't do what I wanted it to do, but it made me look like an orange. Also my foundation turned out to be pretty bad.

In terms of a bright side, the mascara is still great, and is quickly becoming my favorite makeup to wear.

I should just bite the bullet and get laser for my face

The fact that I have to click on more time to get from the front page to the trans mega is violence

trans mega, home... least it was until i started saying pee pee every day.

two of my piercings are acting up and being really annoying im making an appointment to go get them looked at, I feel like it might be a mystery metal allergy issue because my other piercing that i got from a different place is very stable in comparison. hoping i can get it sorted out this week because it's very frustrating grrrrrr

Going to a show with some trans comrades tonight. Looking forward to it. Been feeling isolated lately due to lack of spoons, trying to avoid falling into the depression hole.

went to a show last week and it was so fun. need to go to another soon. first time at a very big venue too, so that was interesting

So if we had a patron deity for trans people, who would it be? My vote would be for Inanna/Ishtar, but I’m curious as to what you all think.

How do you accept that you might never pass?

It's November, which means the Volcel Police is at its strongest. Arm yourself with this knowledge:

ANTI CISGENDER AKTION

Need to schedule some doctor’s appointments but do not want to do so until my legal name change paperwork goes thru.

Really cannot wait until I have no more fucking documents with my deadname.

I need someone to put parental controls on the computer to prevent me from shopping

Was watching muscles and magic mashlee and they got a nonbinary masc character they an antagonist and a bit weird but good person.

Still dub sticks with they/them and outside of their presentation they a classical music buff at least what classical music means to anime fans. They also eat tartar sauce and use fish as a means to eat more tartar sauce. I feel them on this but with sriracha

When things are going pretty good and all I can feel is that there’s a bit less pain than usual.

owo

should i post to neurodiverse after I'm assessed for autism or before?

my birthday is wednesday

Estrogen has made me substantially more emotional but it seems like I bounce back from things alot quicker than in the past. I don't ruminate on things as much because my baseline emotional state is higher.

Getting the head start on the news mega, I see :catgirl-smug:

god is trans

i think the last of the storm passed late last night. we seem to have escaped relatively unscathed considering everything. but unfortunately today is the day i must dig my car out of the mud and go find out if it's still possible to drive to town.

Hello trans mega!

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i'm kicked back on my online recliner

girls :)

hello trans mega

Any other transmasc comrades here?

up with trans

We're like in a secret club waiting for the the other trans mega posters to find us hee hee hee

This daylight savings kinda sweet, got more time to sleep and per chance to dream

that monitor almost looks like it's installed in a brick fireplace lol

Good Morning/Day/Night(?) :ralsei-wave:

I've posted before about my "stuff I just think is neat" or "neat thing I find" windowsill but I got a cute lil' sugarskull pot with some kinda succulent and transferred a hen & chick from the garden into a big mug that sucks to actually drink out of and I think it's cute

(the little 👻 for the skull is a ring that was a decoration for a spoopy Halloween cupcake)

down with cis

Saw the picture and my first thought was, “we need to access the mega via terminal this week?”

secret rings soundtrack is prob idk not my favorite but one I listen to most. I know the series is mostly known for butt rock but this game also got some nu metal. It was a different time...

almost got a post in the last one but it got LOCKED, this is the future tankies want

Hehe

Getting older is finding lumps where there were no lumps before.

I wanted to be a smooth trans, not a lumpy trans -_-

pee pee