K (189?–?) Soviet pioneer.
From Kazan, Tartarstan, USSR, K was diagnosed as a ‘transvestite’ in 1937.
She was given permission by the People’s Court to wear female clothing, her identity papers were changed to her female name, and her name was removed from the military recruitment rolls.
She was featured in a 1957 gynaecology textbook.
M.G. Serdiukov. Sudebnaia ginekologiia I sudebnoi akusherstvo. Moscow: Meditsina 1957: 47-8.
Dan Healey. Homosexual Desire in Revolutionary Russia: The Regulation of Sexual and Gender Dissent. Chicago and London: The University of Chicago Press, 2001: fig 24.
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I have come to realize that I am significantly more affected by dysphoria than I thought. I realized how much of a prison guyness feels like and how much I hate feeling like one. I feel like I'm always a little bit aware of what I look like and what I sound like and it makes human interaction feel so much harder.
And it was already really tough to interact with people...
dysphoria
This happened to me as well, thought I wasn't as effected by dysphoria, to the point that I had the "not really trans" thoughts. Then I actually started trying and began transition, opening the metaphorical floodgates 😅
I'm always worried about how people perceive me. Always was, but now I just feel even worse every time I realize that they're always going to see me as a guy 😞
Things will change, it's just a matter of time :meow-hug:
It's always surprising, isn't it? You don't know how bad dysphoria is, for some people anyway, until they've experienced euphoria and something appreciating the gender they wanna be/already are. I never would have said I felt gender dysphoria before I cracked my egg but on the other side of that moment - yeah, I absolutely did and it got worse for a while.
People aren't supposed to exist the way I did: zombie like, disassociating, depressed, anxious, going through the motions and shrugging "why not" when I was handed down manhood by the hegemonic culture, jealous of girls and women in ways that didn't make sense to my (male) friends.
Good news is there is a cure for dysphoria! And it's called transitioning, and you can do it/already are! The voice thing is hard but you can do voice training, progress is typically measured in years - but 3 years from now you'll be glad if you start today. There is a surgery for it but you can make all or most of your progress feminizing your voice by training. I tried to do my old boy voice a few months ago and I uh, lost it. I sound like a girl attempting to sound like her dad to get out of trouble (badly). I can still do, like, Elvis impressions but lost what I thought was going to be my forever voice since I was 16.
I tried to do my old boy voice a few months ago and I uh, lost it. I sound like a girl attempting to sound like her dad to get out of trouble (badly).
Always fun seeing trans women trying to do boy voices badly. One of the streamers I watch regularly was reading voice lines for characters in different voices and I found it amusing how much her male-character voice sounded like what you were describing (granted, I have no clue what her pre-transition voice sounded like).
I tried looking around on YouTube for voice stuff but I wasn't really sure what I was looking for, and I'm scared of hurting myself. I'm not really sure how to do it safely. Are there any resources you would specifically recommend?
It's important to not overexert yourself with voice training. If your throat starts to hurt, stop for the day. It's generally safe, unless people want to rush a very time-intensive process and keep pushing themselves too hard. If you do that, it can damage the vocal chords. This isn't going to happen if you respect warning signs from your body, tho. I've done voice training with a speech therapist because my insurance covers most of that, but a lot of people get good results with online tutorials from channels like transvoicelessons
The standard one is from a channel called, literally, TransVoiceLessons. There are other trans women led voice training lessons, Zheanna is just like the standard one. There's plenty of otherwise cis guys that give instructions on how to do "the girl voice" (for trolling omegle or something???), but personally for me following a trans woman's lessons on how to feminize helped more because they generally had a better idea of what I wanted out of it. I didn't want to sound like a mousy 15 year old for a laugh, I was okay with a deeper but still unmistakably femme adult voice and I wanted to use it every day in every situation so it had to last and be sustainable.
You don't have to pay for lessons but having a coach or a program is quite nice if you can afford it. I used a program to track my pitch but vocal feminization isn't all about pitch (it's actually much more to do with other aspects), still was nice to be able to track my progress with something objective regardless.
It can be hard to start. We've all felt it, you're in good company including any trans woman who has a voice you like and who transitioned post puberty (little easier for her if she got a head start lol). You can absolutely do it, getting started is pure head game. When I started I couldn't train because of the amxiety unless I was completely alone in the house, roommate gone and my ex gone lol. It was much easier after I started training and trying stuff out with a friend who was much bolder and wanted to compare
I've been told my Measurehead impersonation is "uncanny". It feels gross to do it, like being able to fart on command, but sometimes i have this need to parody toxic masculinity.