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EstraDoll [she/her, he/him] @hexbear.net

Meredith, one of my other hamsters || Trans Megathread from May 12th, 2025 to May 18th, 2025

Hi! I've been extremely tired this week and nearly forgot that I was hosting one so I'm writing this last minute! I couldn't think of anything so I'm going to write about one of my hamsters who is not Biggs; Meredith

Meredith was another hamster of mine from a few years ago during the early days of COVID, and she was the absolute sweetest little creature I had ever met. Very friendly, very gentle. She loved exploring anywhere I put her into and never bit me okay she did once ever. She was an absolute sweetheart and bundle of love and was with me during some of the rougher parts of my life

She unfortunately died very suddenly out of the blue one day at a terribly young age showing no symptoms of anything wrong with her prior, which breaks my heart to this very day

I never had her as long as any other hamster of mine but I don't think I had any other hamster touch my heart in quite the same way. I miss you, girl

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  • hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!

    the list as it stands:

     
            SadArtemis* (5/19 - 5/25)
    yewler* (5/26 - 6/1)
    AshenWolf* (6/2 - 6/8)
    PeeNutButtHer (6/9 - 6/15)
    oscardejarjayes* (6/16 - 6/22)
    GayTuckerCarlson* (6/23 - 6/29)
    Eco* (6/30 - 7/6)
    Disaster_of_Passion (7/7 - 7/13)
    peanutbuttercupola* (7/14 - 7/20)
    BountifulEggnog* (7/21 - 7/27)

    ​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

  • It's that time again, goodbye for now comrades

    Be aware of your own enjoyment of the site.

    • If you find yourself no longer having fun, do something else. There are many different comms on Hexbear, and many different ways to shitpost and have fun.
    • If the site as a whole is just not cutting it for you, take a break. We'll still be here when you get back. Nothing should compel you to stay.

    https://hexbear.net/code_of_conduct

  • got a new haircut and we're kinda back?? it came out shorter than I expected but it actually feels more feminine this way. And my hair is definitely less ratty now

  • Don't know if it's a me thing or whatever but whenever I hang out with friends I feel a little high afterwards, prob dumb seeing social interaction like this but yeah it makes me happy since I don't do it often enough.

  • Had a lighthearted message here and was going to write about my hair, but I ended up ripping off the bandage so to speak

    Thank you all for this past year and a bit. I mean it, I would have taken much longer to figure out I am trans had you all not been here. I have met some absolutely wonderful people on here and on tracha, and one who has absolutely changed my life. I feel bad leaving this place behind, but I have to keep in mind it doesn't have to be forever. I can return under a different name, one I likely won't link to myself. I'll also probably stay on matrix, for those who want to reach me there. Still taking a break, and might go through an account reset of sorts, but I'll be there, even if I'm lurking in groups. Feel free to DM me, really, my matrix links are on both of my profiles here, and for those who have talked to me before and want to reach me again, I don't want to cut it all off.

    Part of making this announcement is to manipulate my anxiety, in a sense. I can't go back on this, and I've known I've needed this for a bit now. I'm not isolating either, I'm due for a grass touching (in that I should do things IRL, trust me I touch grass). Thank you all, I'll say for a second time. It's been wonderful, and know that this isn't goodbye. Maybe I'll be back one day. Maybe I'll still be active on tracha. I'm still in DMs for sure. It's just hard to tell where things will go from here.

    I'll not be posting again until it comes time to do my megathread on June 2nd, 2025. It's a biggie, the acknowledgement of my own existence happened a year ago in a couple days, and the date of the mega itself being the day I came out all at once. Until then, stay safe everyone, and be the versions of yourselves you want to be

    Signed, @AshenWolf@hexbear.net & @Luna@hexbear.net

  • Finally bought and played helldivers. Honestly I think this type of game isn't really for me. Better then payday or warframe though. There's so many of the exact same thing in these games though.

    Also playing with "the guys" has lost all joy for me. I'm only out to one. Honestly forgot how much I hate being in a VC with a bunch of guys. I feel so drained.

    Also the one I'm out to, and actually like, asked me my new name a while back because my old nickname felt weird. Still calls me that. My trans-ness still comes up basically every time we talk though which is nice and it feels affirming. Just a weird thing ig. If you didn't actually want to call me a fem name why'd you ask...

  • Guess my gender for the coming weeks while I job train is tad fruity, gonna be learning with some manly men doing manly things. My syllubus don't prohibit my nails painted at least so I'll keep at it there. I've always the luck that people are kind to me so I don't think I'll have any issues and first impressions I had everyone is encouraging so that's great

  • The fence next to the street nearby is almost completely lined with honeysuckle and every time the wind picks up it smells like flowers. Suuuper strong scent!

  • Turns out I'm actually a very expressive person. Been having so many online meetings at work and the amount of times I just smile or have some visible reaction to people is really cute I think. Maybe even starting to actually like my smile after years of hating it.

  • I can't simply state "I like men" and I don't know why. It's true, but I always feel like if I state it I have to go on the defensive and justify myself somehow even though I just... don't?

    I like girls too. fucking love them.

    . I can say that confidently and without hesitance

    but if I say I like men then I get super hesitant. my hand reaches for the back of my head and I feel... awkward? idk. I guess all my trans friends are transbians and I feel kind of out of place when I say "but men tho". but i'm on hexbear now and i still feel awkward talking about it? ugh

  • Those thumbnails from my dreams still mock me with the forbidden knowledge they hold; Can Link survive the horse of greed? Jesus tickles it in your favor. what could these mean chat?

  • Yeah my voice is nice and all but one of these days I should probably figure out how to use it for more than thirty minutes straight without having to recover for a day.

  • Had a powerful dream where all my previous lovers outed themselves as gay for me in a ritualistic way and begged me to date them. I stepped on them and walked away, they don’t deserve me.

  • Yesterday and today, there have been ravens near the tree line -- they are so silly, and loud. Just over there "Ah!" "Ah!" so cool. A goth lady came over yesterday, I told her about the ravens and she said "Oh, that's a good sign!"

  • Its 2am and i'm on a train, there's someone walking up and down the carriage shoutinf and it's really impacting my enjoyment of listening to Pink Floyd, but its onlt cause my headphones are kinda broken. I can smell potato cakes.

    shout on my friend, be safe

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