I've been on HRT for 3 years, and I really have lost all hope that I will ever look like a girl or be gendered correctly or even just be treated with dignity. I'm really ugly and honestly I can tell, people lie and say well it's your personality that matters. It's really not that hard to see, and I am wondering if there is a point to spending 120 dollars a month, just for peace of mind.
Maybe give doubtingtammy's version a go. Most trans women just look like men, so not expecting others do go with your feelings and instead doing it for yourself may be a way to make it work?