The paradox of hating people but wanting to live in a socialist community
I sort of tell myself that it's probably that I just hate how people are under capitalism, but sometimes I wonder if I simply dislike being around people in general.
I don't hate people so much as I prefer trees and animals to people.
I enjoy my chosen people, but even then, I don't have unlimited tolerance for social interaction. I still require quiet and people free space.
I'm the kind of person who enjoys living within 10 miles or so of a big enough sized town that we have robust services and amenities, but small enough that 10 miles feels sufficiently isolated that it's possible for me to spend a day seeing only flora and fauna.
I'm aware that I'm extremely inefficient in that way, but being human is rarely about efficiency.
I assume this applies to owls as well.
I consider myself a "social introvert" in that I enjoy interacting with people but NEED my alone time to feel sane. Idk if that applies to you, but it's helped me make sense of my needs.
The way I've always thought about it is that the difference between an introvert and an extrovert is that an extrovert gains energy from social interaction and an introvert expends energy in social interactions.