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i was going to write something long and cringe but instead i'll just say that i'm permanently ruined from lifelong loneliness and even if someone was interested in me i lack the mental health to safely engage in any kind of romantic relationship. i want to die.
Plenty of miserable people are in relationships it doesn't really fix anything. I hope that you can find something that does make you feel less broken though. I'm sure that comes across as trite and insincere from an internet stranger but I've said some very similar things about myself, still do sometimes, and I wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone
i have definitely seen firsthand how relationships don't fix everyting lol, my roommates are a couple and they have a shouting/dramatically storming out of the house episode just about once a week. part of my loneliness is hesitance to be vulnerable to that kind of situation and difficulty finding someone i honestly think would be compatible in a healthy way. plus the closest thing i have to a job is gig economy shit, i need weed to stay sane and driving is my only marketable skill.
Capitalism is a fuck. I'm sorry that you feel so isolated I know how much that sucks. But nothings forever, yeah? Things won't always be this bad, I know how it can seem that way. But things will get better, then they'll get worse again, then they'll get really bad, then they'll start getting better again, and somewhere in there you'll die.
That was supposed to be a joke, but seriously life goes in cycles try not to get to sucked into focusing on only the bad shit or you'll miss the good parts